i thought i could never let go
that you were the one source of happiness for me
that i just wanted to be with you
i used to think i was jealous of them
that i wanted the love from you that you give them
but as i think about what would have happened
if i was with you again
i realize that i don't even want your love
i just want you to be happyi thought i was mad when i heard about them
but i also didn't care
every time i talked to you i walked away smiling
i thought it was because i'm still in love with you
but maybe it's just because i love what you have
with them
that i love seeing you this happy
and i love seeing them this happyi know you think i'm not over you
that they think i'm not over you
that everyone thinks i'm bitter about you with them
but the truth is that i've never been happier for youi'm really not in love with you
i'm just in love with happiness
and seeing the way you look at them
and they way they look at you
gives me all the happiness i need
YOU ARE READING
You wouldn't care if i explained
PoetryJust trying to get my thoughts out before they consume me {TRIGGER WARNING- mentions of suicide and self harm}