i don't want to hate you
but it's so hard not to when you hurt me so bad
there are times that i want to call you
and just apologize
but then i remember how the conversation will go
i think about when we were happy
friends
but it only lasts for days at a time
until you tell me you wish i was dead
that my friends want me dead
and then i forgive again
but i'm pulling away from a spiders web
and resisting your lies
it gets hard
but i need to do it
maybe if you change we'll be friends
but if i don't hate you i won't resist
YOU ARE READING
You wouldn't care if i explained
PoetryJust trying to get my thoughts out before they consume me {TRIGGER WARNING- mentions of suicide and self harm}
