Sing For Me

You're My Boy MINE!!

Ben's point of view

"Ben Sweetie" Lisa says trying to get a reaction out of me because I have almost shut myself down. I'd pictured this moment in my mind time and time again, what would I do what would I say I don't even know how I recognize her but I do, all the anger, bitterness, pain and heartache that she had ever caused me was rising up in me to the point that I felt like I was choking 

"How are you Son?" she says, adding insult to injury by calling me Son. 

"I'm not your Son" I say calmly how I am so calm I don't know, Lisa hasn't let go of me rubbing her hand up and down my forearm, just letting me know she's there. 

"I know this is a shock, but if you'll just let me explain" she really does think I'm going to give her a piece of my time 

"There's nothing to explain, you've got nothing to say that I want to hear" I tell her my voice a little more venomous now, she makes me this way she changes me.

"Why are you here, Lisa is there something wrong, the baby?" I hate the fact she even speaks to Lisa, uses her name like she has some right. 

She starts to walk towards her and I just flip "DON'T TOUCH HER, DON'T SPEAK TO HER, DON'T EVEN LOOK AT HER" my temper is fierce its scares me and I can feel Lisa tense next to me but I do not want her anywhere near my wife and child. 

"Benjamin Please" she dares to speak again 

"Please what, listen, to your excuses, your lies, how did you find me, WHY did you find me what the fuck do you want mother?" 

Lisa is trying to keep me calm "Ben baby please just calm down" I don't want her stressed or upset, she's been through enough. 

"I'm OK sweetheart" I say to her

"I've been looking for you for a long time, I knew if I contacted your father he would turn me away so I found other ways, then when I thought I'd traced you I came down here and I saw your wedding photo in the paper" I hiss through my teeth at her she's unbelievable and I hate her speaking about Dad after what she did to him, she broke him too "I knew it was you, you've barely changed you were the most beautiful little boy and to see you grow into such a fine man makes me so proud" she's sobbing but I refuse to fall for it and I can see Lisa isn't she's been here with her own mother who played the guilt trips like a pro. 

"Is that it?" I snap at her "You finished" she just looks at me crying like a fool, but I feel nothing

"I wanted to make things right between us" really I'm thinking 

"What after over thirty years you've decided I have a place in your life now, because if your thinking of coming back to play Mummy your too late" she dares to turn to Lisa again which riles me 

"Lisa love can you not see what I'm trying to do" Lisa glares at her I have never seen her like this, so defiant 

"Yes I can see exactly, your going to make him feel guilty, tell him that you've changed that your sorry, that you want his forgiveness" she's walking towards my mother so they are literally nose to nose "I know the game I've seen it played before, my own mother treated me like shit, just like you did Ben and I'm not going to let you do that to him again" she goes to touch Lisa which pushes me over the edge I run towards Lisa pulling her to me 

"KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF MY WIFE, come on sweetheart we are going" she starts to follow us out into the car park it is suddenly pouring down with rain, its coming down like a sheet I use my jacket to shelter us as we run towards the car desperate to get away from her, but she's running after us.

We both jump in and I start the engine, she's banging on Lisa's window like some crazed animal in a cage. I run out and pull her away "GO JUST GO I want nothing to do with you DO YOU UNDERSTAND" she pulls at my clothes "Get off me" I yell pushing her away