Sing For Me

She loves me

Ben's Point of view

I carry her to my bedroom, I can feel her heart racing matching my own. I lay her down on my bed getting a rush of emotion just seeing her lying there, I had pictured it in my head since the day I met her and now she was here. "Are you warm enough sweetheart" I ask her and she nods her sweet little nod no words needed as her eyes tell me everything I need to know. I close the curtains,dim the lights, light some candles and put some music on before I go and lie next to her looking at her, as we take each other in. "You nervous" I ask her softly because I can sense that she is so painfully

"hmm" she says again nodding love her.

"Don't be Lis please" I say to her as I take hand and put it to my lips.

"You must think I'm so silly, so..............." she looks down "So frigid" this eats at me

"Don't use that word sweetheart because that's not what you are I will prove that to you" I tell her as I stroke her face pulling her towards me "Do I make you feel safe" I ask her

"Yes safer than I've ever felt" she tells me which is music to my ears this is how I want her to feel when we are alone like this.

"We will take it slow baby, and if you are not happy with anything then tell me and I will stop" I tell her and she smiles at me with every word I feel her relax "I want this to be special for you sweetheart I want you to enjoy it" she runs her fingers through my hair as I say this, her touch is electric. Deep within her is a desire so pure just that need to be loved and nurtured and I will do everything in my power to give it her. "Come here sweetheart let me hold you" I tell her "Tell me what you're thinking" I ask her

"I really want this Ben I'm just nervous like I said, afraid I won't be good enough" she says making my heart ache

"Oh Darling it's our first time I'm nervous too that's why we are going to take things steady yeah" I tell her "We will just do what feels good what feels right, does this feel right to you Lis" I ask her and she nods

"I've got butterflies" she says I cant help but giggle at her

"Oh sweetheart" I say

"I'm aching for you" she tells me, if she only knew how strong my own ache was.

"But I don't really know what to do Sweetie, what should I do for you" she asks me but what she doesn't understand is just being here is all I need from her

"Let me show you darling" I say to her," do you trust me?" I ask her and she nods "I'm going to make you feel more loved than you ever have before" she blushes like a little girl which makes me love her even more. We kiss deep and long she lets out a small moan which I feel deep within me."My darling I want you so much" I say to her. We just lie and kiss at first as I feel her fears slowly fade.

I start to take off her clothes, she trembles to my touch but I'm determined to show her that this is something to savour, that the touch of a man is not to be feared. She places her hands on her stomach when I take off her dress, as if to hide something "Lis don't hide from me" I urge her she closes her eyes and pulls her hands away to reveal her scars but suddenly she puts her hand lower covering more scars, marks of a mother from carrying her babies I bend down and kiss them, they are part of her, part of who she is, "Don't be ashamed of these either Lis please, maybe one day you will carry my child too" I tell her thinking I maybe shouldn't have said it right now but my heart is spilling out everything to her as she opens her eyes and looks at me "Shit sorry I didn't mean to be blurting that out right now" I say

"You didn't" she says with tears in her eyes as she smiles at me once more. I feel her relax under my lips as I move back up to hers. I can sense her nerves, yet her excitement is fighting to get through, I sit up on my knees taking in the sight of her, and take off my shirt watching her smile at me as I do. Her black lacy bra cups her sweet breasts so perfectly, she giggles slightly with some embarrassment when she realises what knickers she has on "Oh shit" she laughs they are a pair of black shorties with Minnie mouse on and red polka dots soooooo cute, I tease her saying "They are very cute darling" I laugh
"Didn't exactly dress for the occasion" she smiles