What happens next
I wonder as i look through our pictures
Something so young
Suddenly flaming and gone
I sit and dream about what we had
And what i let go in the ashes of it all
I didn't want to loose you I never did
But i always wanted what was best for you
Even if it was what was worse for me.
I sit in the chair that we used to cuddle on
Under the blanket that you always used to steal
It still smells like you.
I sit and wish that i could go back to that night
When i fell asleep in your arms while we watched Disney movies
One of the best nights of my life.
It's funny how something so simple can light that spark
The spark that over grew
And suddenly burned down what we had right in front of our faces in the blink of an eye.
Now you no longer text me as i lay here
I no longer have that emotion
I'm just overcome with heartbreak
And guilt
And wishing that i could feel nothing at all instead
I loved her
But she will never look at me that way again
I miss her
And she will never know.
YOU ARE READING
You wouldn't care if i explained
PoetryJust trying to get my thoughts out before they consume me {TRIGGER WARNING- mentions of suicide and self harm}
