Shawn Mendes Imagines

i hate u i love u

I hate you

I love you

I hate that I want you

You want her

You need her

And I will never be her

...

I turned up the radio, my fingers sliding gently against the knob. I had my legs on the dash. My head leaning on my seat as my arm dangled out of the window. The wind pushing it against the edge of my window.

"You know Y/N. Maybe we could get you out on the market. You haven't been mingling in a while."

"I know Veronica," I agreed in a mutter. My best friend let out a dramatic sigh and laughed, turning up the radio.

I let my arm still hang out of the window, using my other to grab my phone from my pocket.

Scrolling down my feed.

They were outside an ice cream place. One we have gone to many times.

Her arms were wrapped loosely around his neck.

His hands secured her waist.

Her foot was up in the air like in old cliche photos.

Big open smiles and squinted eyes.

Their photo was a cliche photo.

They were so happy.

But unlike all the people who commented gushy congrats comments and little hearts, I could see past pearly white teeth.

Shawn had a little bit of hesitation.

But why?

He had the perfect girl.

She was perfect.

And I will never be her.

Shawns POV

Her photo.

She was leaning up against a wall. One of her arms above her head and the other hanging limp against her one leg that was propped up. It was black and white.

I frowned.

"Babe which one?" I glanced up. My girlfriend stood with two shirts in hand. I didn't even bother to actually decide and pointed to the left one. She smiled and kissed my cheek. "Perfect I like that one more!"

"Then why did you ask me?" I snapped. She scrunched her face.

"I am going to go get changed and pretend you didn't just give me attitude," She said and walked into the room, slamming the door. I sighed and laid down on the couch. I went to my messages and clicked on Y/N's contact. I typed a "hey". I stared at the screen. Then shook my head and deleted the text. I rolled my eyes and tossed my phone on the floor. There was no point. She wouldn't even answer anyways.

Your POV

I am slowly falling apart.

And I have tried to give people signals. Begging for help silently. And everyone looks right over me. So I will just roll back into my ball and keep everything inside. I shouldn't have even trusted anyone.

"Come on Y/N let's find you a greek god to bat your eyelashes too," Veronica insisted as we entered the party. I rolled my eyes.

"You are not my matchmaker," I commented.

"Yeah I am. Now send me a picture if you find anyone cute," She winked and ran away from me. On a mission to probably find the closest single bartender. I saw a plant in the corner. And took a picture of that and send it to Veronica with a million heart emojis. I then grabbed a nearby drink from an old lady as the bartender and stood by my so called cute plant. I was not a party person. I swished the liquid in the glass, staring at the colors swirl as I thought about all the reasons I shouldn't be here. 

And then a huge reason called my name. 

"Y/N?" 

I looked up. And he stood, a drink also in his hand. And he walked over to me. Clothes that were too fancy for his casual style were tightened around his slim body. His collar completely smoothed on his neck. He had dress shoes  on instead of sneakers. A watch was fit perfectly around his wrist. I gulped as I knew he didn't dress himself. What was he... five?

"Uh. Hi Shawn."

A/N

hi guys. 

im really sorry so so sorry I haven't uploaded. I know some people even got mad at me because of it im sorry i know i cant make anyone happy lol but anyways i have been really busy and the best night of my life happened last night. Shawn Peter Raul Mendes the guy I have been watching since he only did little vines and everyone didn't even know his name was in the same room as me. The guy I have wrote kinda creepy and weird stories about sang amazing lyrics I have listened to for years. I won't try to brag but it was probably one of the best expriences I will ever have. He has changed me with his words so much and has helped me through so much. Heck he is the reason I get to write to all of you. And I got to jump and scream lyrics and sway. Being a person who is constantly stressing it was one of the only moment I could truly be happy. I didn't have my phone really so I didn't get footage but I really had the best time in the pretty arena listening to one of my biggest role models. By the way his opener is named James TW check him out for real he was amazing too... Okay long a/n i know sorry about that but sorry again for the delay but there will probably be a part two to this imagine in the future so don't worry :) love you all