𝘽𝙚𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙛𝙪𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙒𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙠𝙚𝙙

Chapter Eight • Screwed

𝙇𝙪𝙣𝙖'𝙨 𝙋𝙤𝙫

It's been three days now since Jax saved me, three days since I've been ignoring him.

I know it's childish to ignore him, especially when his parents have been so welcoming and are letting Lily and I stay in their home for the time being. I just-I can't stop thinking about that night.

The cold look on his face when he questioned if I was working with Kyle and the Americans, if all this time I was just trying to lure him in. I know it shouldn't hurt considering I've known him for almost two weeks now, but it does.

It really does.

I haven't been doing much other than resting, doctor's orders, as well as Xander's and Lily's.

I swear, those two are meant to be overprotective mothers.

I haven't been sleeping much, bad thoughts never leaving my mind which always results in me sitting on the floor against the bathtub over and over again.

I'm not proud of myself, of my relapse, but I didn't know what else to do. I can't bother Lily anymore than I already have, besides, her and Baxter are so cute together and I don't want to ruin it. I don't want to tell Xander because even though we're good friends and we both hate Jax right now, he's still Jax's brother. And I'm sure you can imagine why I'm not currently speaking to Jax.

"Sweetheart, can I come in?" Xander softly asks from outside my bedroom door.

"Yeah." I say back as I'm still focusing on the book in my hand.

"Hey, what's up." He says as he sits next to me on my bed.

"Umm not much, just relaxing. Why what's up?" I say finally looking up at him.

"Well Lily, Baxter, and I are going to the mall to pick up some new things since this is your guy's new home and we want you to make it your own."

I love him so much.

"Yeah that sounds great, when are we leaving?" I ask.

I look at Xander and he seems nervous.

"Um whenever you're ready but there's something you should know." He says avoiding eye contact.

"What's wrong?"

"Okay so Jaxiscomingwithusdontbemad." He rushes out in one breath.

"I didn't understand a word you just said."

He lets out a sigh.

"Jax is coming with us, please don't be mad. We tried to tell him no but he wouldn't back down. I'm sorry." His tone laced with defeat.

Oh, Jax is coming.

That's um, that's interesting.

"Well um that's fine, can't avoid him forever." I laugh awkwardly.

"We don't even have to talk to him okay. It will be like he isn't there."

"Xander, I appreciate you sticking up for me, but you can't ignore him forever. He's your brother."

"What he said to you isn't okay, so I'm gonna continue to be mad at him." He says in all seriousness.