Not as planned 1 - Katsuki Bakugo

Chapter 108

Eijiro's gaze was sad. He had known it, but hearing it was even harder. "They were all right" he mumbled. "We are just too young and inexperienced. We shouldn't have started it in the first place."

Katsuki looked up to him. "I ... yeah, you're right" his voice was high and whiney.

Eijiro nibbled on this lower lip, thinking. He observed Katsuki. He tried to see him as the person he was before this all happened. "What do you feel for me?"

Katsuki looked like a deer in the headlights after this question. "I ... uh ..." his cheeks got redder. He had to avoid Eijiro's gaze. "I still love you ... while talking to my therapists ... I realized it, how much I actually love you" He grimaced a little. "But I know that you won't love me anymore, not after everything that happened. So, it's the right punishment I guess."

The alpha observed Katsuki for a long while. The omega seemed so nervous. Eijiro's jaw was working while he decided what he should do with him. He only knew that he couldn't be together with him, anymore.

He exhaled eventually. "Well, I really can't love you anymore" he started. "It hurt so much the last time that I don't want to put myself through this ever again. Even if we were allowed to date, it would probably end up not good. We're too young and we really should focus on becoming heroes."

Trembling, Katsuki sucked in the air, he nodded heavily. "Yeah, I thought that, it's okay, I completely understand that. I would say the same if I were you."

"But I don't want this thing between us anymore" Kirishima added. Katsuki tilted his head in confusion.

"I ... look, I watched you from time to time and it felt terrible to see you like this. I wanted to go over to you, but I feared that this would make it even worse. I didn't know if that would trigger your omega to think that everything is great between us or not, it shouldn't think that, because it clearly isn't all sunshine between us. But I want us to get better, okay? I want us to be at least friends again, if you are okay with that. I don't want us to fight any longer. I hate fighting. I'm so tired of it; I just want to move past all this."

More tears welled up in Katsuki's eyes. "I want us to be better too. I want us to be friends again!"

A smile appeared on Eijiro's face. "Good, I'm glad to hear that." It was an honest smile. "Should I bring Mina and Ochako over? So that you three can talk too?"

"Yeah, I think that would be good." Katsuki nodded. And Eijiro stood up from the bed to go grab Mina and Ochako.

When he was alone, more tears rolled down Katsuki's cheeks. He felt so relieved! Over the past couple of months he had build up a world for himself, in which Eijiro hated him, it was his way of dealing with the situation. Thinking that Eijiro hated him, made it easier to deal with his own emotions. He still loved him and this way he could make himself believe, that there was never ever a chance of getting him.

He stood up and walked over to the bathroom. He let the cold water run over his hands and he splashed it against his heated face. He would do anything to make a friendship with Kirishima work again. It was now on him, to get his feelings under control.

He scrunched his nose as a wave of nausea washed over him. He quickly leaned over the toilet and he started to puke again. God, he wished this was over soon.

Katsuki heard the door open again. "Bakugo?" Eijiro called.

"One moment!" the omega managed to answer between two waves. He heard rustling outside and a minute later the door opened Eijiro was again next to him, rubbing over his back.

When it was over, Eijiro helped him again, to clean him, before he was finally ready to go out. He was pale and tired. He held his stomach while walking back to his nest. Mina and Ochako waited patiently for him. "Sorry" he mumbled.

"Don't worry" Ochako said.

When everyone was seated somewhere – Katsuki in his nest, Eijiro next to him and Mina and Ochako on the floor – there was an uncomfortable silence for a while. Mina and Ochako stared at Katsuki, but the omega stared to the ground. He was trembling.

Eventually Eijiro cleared his throat. "Well, Bakugo and I had a talk, he apologized for what happened and uh ... we try to make at least a friendship work again." He announced.

Mina's and Ochako's faces lit up when they heard it. "Really? You reconciled? That is good to hear" Ochako smiled.

"I want to apologize to you too. You got in between all of this and I ruined our friendship ... and it is my fault that Deku left." He murmured.

"I am sorry too, I was just so mad at both of you. I didn't consider everything that happened and I was just so focused on the fact that you hurt Eijiro. I was pretty mean to you too, so I hope you can forgive me too." Mina started.

"And I want to apologize too. I just rolled with it that was not okay" Ochako added. "And, no, you weren't the reason that Deku left. He made the decision!"

"No, no, I was at fault, you had every right to be mad, and it is the same with Deku, I provoked him" Katsuki mumbled.

"Well, let's just say, everyone sucked here, and leave it at that, okay?" Mina suggested. She didn't want the situation to escalate by trying to force Katsuki to change his mind on that.

Katsuki nodded. "Okay, sounds good." He smiled a little at them.

"So, I ... uh ... Do you want to try again to be friends?" Mina asked.

Katsuki looked at them. Hope shimmered in his eyes. "Yes, I want to try it again."

Ochako stood up. "That would be great! I hope we can go back to be friends again too." She put her hands together and smiled.

Mina got up too. "Yes, let's try our best! We can overcome this situation!"

Katsuki nodded happily. "Yes, we will!"

Eijiro watched the three omegas, they shared awkward hugs, they were still not sure, how to handle the situation properly. A little bit of sadness flashed in his eyes, the only one missing now was Midoriya ...

They talked for a while after that, before the other three had to leave for school. Katsuki stayed in his room and he would try to recover as fast as possible.