Still I Can Feel You - Joel Hokka

Just Started

January 2017, Helsinki

"Tommorow I'm starting my job in the cafeteria next to the park" Kristy said when I opened the door of my apartment and she walked in

It's been almost ten days since they moved here and she already managed to find a job. They also like the town and their house and have gotten easily used to it

She's gonna work there mostly in the afternoons because of her lessons which she's gonna attend online. I'm sure she will manage to control everything.

Also about me and Niko we are trying to find a place here to create a new and bigger studio since Joonas is for real planning to move here soon as he informed us so it's better if we get a new place.
We won't be able all to go always to Oulu everytime we need to meet for the band or for recordings or just to hang out.

We could always use the studio just to hang out there. It was a nice place with a good vibe that always managed to relax us and we always came up with such good lyrics after.

We have already started writing lyrics for songs about our second album which will probably be out in 2018, next year

I just hope that this album will get even more famous than the first one and people will listen to it

"Good morning to you too" I yawned and walked behind her

It was early in the morning and it's Sunday. For me it's always a rule that even if I usually wake up early,  on Sunday's I will sleep till late. If they allow me to though
She must be really excited that's why she's up from now and she visited me

"Aw I'm sorry" she hugged me "Good morning" she gave me a quick kiss that I wish it would last longer

"Coffee?" I asked her

"Actually I would prefer tea, If you have" she said

I walked in the kitchen and she followed behind.
She took her coat off and placed it the empty chair next to the one that she sat

It was pretty cold today outside. It was snowing almost the whole night.
If I was in her place I wouldn't really dare to come out with this cold

I made me a coffee and her the tea and we took the mugs and went in the living room

I let the mug in the table and went in my room to get a hoodie. I woke up some time ago and I'm still cold.

Nothing can compare to the warmth that I have under the covers in my bed

When I returned back she was already in the couch, sitting with the mug in her hands and she had opened the TV.
I didn't really pay attention to what was playing though 

She smiled when she saw me.
Oh how much I want to hug her now and don't let her go for a while.
She moved a strap of her hair behind her ear and pat the space next to her

How did I even get so lucky?

"How's Niko doing. We didn't speak yesterday" I moved my eyes away from her

She would think that I'm a creep if she caught me looking at her like this and for so long, it wouldn't be the first time

"My man caught a cold and now can't even leave his room" she looked at the drink in her mug and then took a sip

I know how Niko can be and act when he gets a cold or gets sick. And it's not really easy to handle him

"That's why I won't stay for too long. I need to check on him and you know that he also acts like a baby. He has a headache and fever and he wants me to prepare his funeral" she sighed and I laughed

Sickness can be scary some times but I don't think that there is need for him to act this way. Especially when he's not living alone but has Kristy to help him if he needs anything

That's why she came this early, she probably found now the chance to leave cause maybe he's sleeping.
I messaged him yesterday but he didn't reply and probably that's why

"I hope you are not this way" she looked at me suspiciously waiting to hear a no.

I shaked my head negatively and she nodded pleased
I wouldn't say no if I had someone like Kristy to take care of me though and if it meant that we could spend some more time together.

Now that she will start her job and will also have her studies she won't have much time and I'm gonna hate this.

I won't be able to see her. Maybe she won't even be able to come here for some hours like she's doing now. She will probably be tired to even talk with me.

I think I found where I'm gonna drink my coffees from now on

"I can drive you to the cafeteria tomorrow" I said and took her attention from the TV that she was watching a show

"Sure why not"  she smiled

I opened my arms signalizing her that she could come closer. I just need to feel her close to me. That's the best way to start my day. Having the woman that I love in my arms.

She laid between my legs and placed her head in my chest. Should I be feeling like this just because she's laying with me? How can a hug make a human so happy? 

I looked down at her. She was already looking at me.
Sharing another eye contact without speaking. Her lips lifting forming a smile. Every time she smiles her eyes shining. It's like she's doing something to my heart. Everytime she looks at me this way. Every time I hold her it's like every organ that I have inside me will explode.
That's how being in love feels? Does she feel the same way when we're together?

I just hope that I won't be too dumb to lose her. I want to keep what we have like an amulet.
Hide it deep inside my heart, keep it there forever and protect it whatever it costs

"Come on give me a smile" she looked up at me "it's been a while"

Smiling isn't really my thing and I barely do it. When I'm drunk it will happen the whole time or when I'm really happy or excited about something I will have the biggest smiles in my face but only when I feel like I mean it and when I'm with my people but I don't usually use smiling that's more like Kristy's thing. She has many different types of smiles but the one when her whole face is shining and I feel that the smile is coming from her heart and soul is my favourite

I moved a strap of hair away from her eyes and smiled at her. I can't say no to a request like this

"That's what I like to see" she moved up and sat it my lap

I grabbed her hips and pulled her closer to me so she can let all her self to me.

"And now kiss me" she placed her hand behind my neck and the other one under my chin

I love it when we kiss each other but when she makes the first move it just hits different and  I'm so obsessed with it

I held the back of her head and pulled her closer, deepening the kiss, trying so hard to take a breath but also keep our lips connected.
Everytime we kiss each other in the beginning it's like it is our first kiss but after some seconds it's like we've been kissing for years. I know exactly how every inch of her lips feels and everytime I feel them on mine I just don't want to pull away.

"I don't want this to end" I placed my hand on her cheek when we pulled away

"It has just started Joel" she looked down and smiled 

Just started.... As she said
We are together only for some months. We've known each other for a year.
Our story has just begun.
We have to create our future in this world

*Author's note

Eurovision week is over and my life has no meaning again..... Let's go....

New chapter out. I needed to write something cute about those two
Also thank you for 4k

Enjoy 🖤