October 2016, Oulu
I didn't waste a minute and decided to visit the clinic where Johanna is kept. I would go later to Joonas.
I need to inform her that I don't have something with Kristy anymore because who knows, maybe she's also planning something else so it's better if I go now.
I called a taxi and told them where the clinic is. There is also the thought that when they tell her my name she won't want to see me but I'm gonna do everything to manage to tell her at least one sentence.
I've been with Johanna for years but I never liked her the way that I like Kristy.
I developed feelings for her that I didn't even knew that existed but again I had to leave her.
She's right I shouldn't give up with the first difficulty but what's happening here isn't easy. I won't be here to be aware about what's going on, I will have to return to Helsinki next week. What if something happened to her while I was away?
Johanna is really crazy and If this time she just made someone hit Kristy the next time she would make sure that she wouldn't open her eyes ever again.
You never know what a person's brain and mind that's imagining things can make them do
I don't know if I will never be able to get from the start what we began with Kristy and I don't know if she will keep the same feelings after what I did today but I just want her to be okay and safe even if that means that I have to avoid her and won't be with her.
"It won't take me too long. Please wait here" I said to the taxi driver and walked out
I always hated this place. The way that I saw people. How miserable they looked and okay for the people that have friends and family that visit them but what about those that have no one in this world?
I walked through the main room.
One man fighting with himself and shouting in the wall. Another woman acting like a child. Two people talking normally but after some seconds start shouting to each other. A young girl standing behind the window and looking outside and doing nothing else
It hurts me to see all those people like this, especially when you don't know their story, so I just lowered my head and tried to find a nurse so I could be allowed to speak to Johanna
"Hello. Can I please see Johanna Sanchez?" I said and the nurse smiled and lead me where her room is
"If something happens press the blue button next to the door" she said and opened the door
I just nodded and walked in slowly. I can't lie that I'm scared about what I'm gonna face or about what she can do. She hates me so she could easily try to hurt me too.
She was laying in bed but when she realized that she wasn't alone she turned around and looked at me in disbelief
"What do you want here?" She moved her body up but didn't get up from the bed that she was
"To talk" I sat in the empty chair that was only some meters away from her
She looks really calm right now and she hasn't gotten another crisis because I'm here.
The first time I visited her the next second she was acting like a child who you just took their toy and she was shouting and moving like crazy.
She just nodded, crossed her hands and looked at me carefully. She has probably just gotten her medicine that's why she's this calm, I can't give another explaination to what I'm seeing right now
"The only thing I want to say is that you should never try to hurt Kristy again" she laughed at my words "What we had doesn't exist anymore so you should leave her alone" she got up and I moved back a little
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