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I'm gonna be jumping between people in this, so it'll start with Reese but the next paragraphs on Shawn's perspective and so on and so forth.
I made him sleep on the couch.
I cried so much more than I should've.
I cried until I ran out of tears.
I told her I loved her.
He's watching the interview, probably just to laugh at me.
She thinks I don't love her anymore.
I don't know what to do anymore.
She won't talk to me.
I'm still mad at him.
No one actually helped me get her back but the hate is twice as bad.
The hate is ten times worse.
I tried so hard to fix it, now she's back to her cigarettes.
I smoked my first cigarette in two years.
She started with one.
And I finished the whole package. I tried pot.
I don't want her to overdose.
They don't know I did though.
I want to send her to rehab.
If they find out I'll be sent to rehab. I have a bag full of them.
I just want her healthy again.
I might overdose.
I want her back in my arms.
I don't think I'd be doing this if he was ever around, or payed us any attention.
I try so hard to make the other people happy I forgot about my family.
He never plays with Adam anymore.
I barely get to see my baby boy.
And he isn't around for me when I need him.
I canceled the honeymoon for my tour and now I broke her.
Maybe he isn't in love with me.
I'm so madly in love with her.
Maybe we need a brake.
I think I need to take a brake from my career.
Maybe me and Adam will move, give him the house.
Maybe we should move and start a new life for ourselves.
Maybe he doesn't need us.
I don't know what I would do without them.
I loved him.
I love them so much.
He needs time to get his shit together.
I think I finally got myself together.
I'm not what he needs.
She's all I needed.
If I leave soon he won't know.
If I look soon I might be able to find a new house.
I wanna leave my life in Pickering and start a better one somewhere else.
If we move we can start a new life, maybe with more kids.
He wanted more kids.
I'd love to have more kids with her.
I can't have any more kids with him. He betrayed me.
I can't wait to tell her.
I have to leave him.
I'm gonna take a year off so she can go off to her fashion shows.
I think I'm gonna have to stop modelling.
I'd love to watch her model.
I have to fly to Italy next week.
I can't wait to watch her in Italy next week. It could be the start of something huge for her.
I think that could be my only show.
I'd love to watch her get popular and have a huge fan base.
I think I have to divorce him.
I can't wait to hold her again.
If I divorce him now I can start my new life, with my baby boy.
I can't wait to start a new life with my babies.
He won't agree with it though.
What if she doesn't want to move?
And what are we gonna do with Adam?
I'm gonna be a stay at home dad.
I'm sure he'd want to see him still.
I can't wait to tell her.
I guess I better tell him.
She'll be so happy.
He's gonna be devastated.
I want to be more engaged with my family.
We got engaged so young.
Maybe I should tell Andrew first.
What am I gonna tell Becky?
I'm gonna take a year off to be with my family and to support my wife.
She won't be that upset, will she?
My wife is my rock.
Maybe I'm blowing this all out of proportion.
I can't wait to see the look on her face.
The look on his face would kill me.
I wanna tell her.
I guess I should tell him.
Should I buy a house first?
Should I talk to someone else about this?
Maybe she'll be happy again.
He's going to be broken.
I just wanna see her smile again.
He needs the truth I can't lie to him anymore.
I can't wait to tell her, but I have to keep it on the low for a while.
I'm gonna send him the papers. I won't be able to tell him face to face.
What about Ian and Chrissy?
What am I gonna tell Ian and Chrissy.
I'll let them keep the house to start their own little family in one day.
I loved him. I don't still love him, do I?
I can't wait to build a bigger family with her. I love her so much.
He's probably downstairs making fun of me.
She's probably happy while I'm not around.
He probably doesn't care.
I hate the fact that she doesn't think I care.
I need a joint.
I need to stop her from smoking.
I wanna overdose.
I can't let her slip.
No one would care.
It would kill me to loose her.
But I'd miss Adam.
I'll have to hide her stuff.
I can't remember where I left my bag.
She left her bag right next to me. I looked through it.
I hope I didn't leave it by Ian.
I'm gonna hide it from her.
I should've hid it better.
I can't wait to be a normal family.
I wish we could be a normal family.
But it's my fault.
It's all his fault.
I brought her home.
He laughed at me.
She needs her bottle.
I'm supposed to take the bottle. But I can't do it by myself and I don't wanna ask Shawn.
I should go up and give it to her.
I won't let him.
I fucked up.
I fucked up.