~•~ Chapter 59 ~•~
“So this is it, it's confirmed.” Louis mumbled, staring down at the floor, sad. “Harry is fucking leaving.”
My heart broke even more and I sighed heavily, the tears struggling to come to the surface. I wrapped my arms around my legs as everyone looked down with sadness covering their faces.
“God, how did we mess it up so bad?” Louis huffed, running both hands down his face.
“It wasn't really our fault, Louis. We did what we had to do.” Chris muttered, staring blankly at the glass in his hand.
“It's all because of that whore!” Louis suddenly yelled, his voice echoing in the air.
“The officer is the biggest fucking douche I've ever met.” Zayn snapped, staring up at the black sky. “He had everything planned.”
I sighed and looked up at the sky, the cold wind doing little to ease the burning pain in my heart. Harry was going to be taken to another campus. I couldn't just wrap it around my mind. I hated the fact that tomorrow Harry will step out of this building and might never come back.
I rested my cheek on my knee and sighed. I hated this feeling. This anticipation and hope for something unbelievable and impossible. This hate for Casey, Harry, my luck and myself. This pain that kept pinching my heart. It was slowly draining me.
“I'm so sick of this drama.“ Liam muttered before taking a long sip from his beer. “And the worst part is that we're losing another member of our family.” he added, making my heart warm but also break. He looked sadly at the ground and ran a hand through his hair. “I hate this, man, I really do.”
“We all do.” Zayn sighed, tapping Liam's arm.
There was an obvious sad mood around and tension flying in the air. Like, if someone who didn't know what happened nor didn't know us, came here and saw us, he would immidiately realise that something awful is bothering us all.
“I'm telling you, once Harry leaves, I'm out of the army group.” Louis suddenly announced, making us all look at him. He made a face as he stared ahead. “I'm not going to stay a minute longer in that group since Harry won't be the leader. Just no.” he stated, moving his head. He had his hood on and a cigarette between his fingers, obviously irritated and sad with what was going on.
“Man, you can't give up on the group,” Chris said lowly.
“Yes I fucking can, Chris!” Louis snapped and turned to glare at Chris with his intent blue angry eyes. “My only leader is Harry. I will not accept any fucking order from anyone else and I will not serve anyone else.” He stated, dead serious. “Now fuck off, man.” he moved his hand dismissively and took a hint from his joint.
“I'm right behind you, Louis.” I said, causing everyone to turn and look at me in shock. “Harry brought me here, Harry put me in the army group. I'm not going to obey any other jerk that steps foot in here to replace Harry.” I said, staring blankly at the concrete wall across from me.
“Claire..” Liam muttered.
“I'm not changing my mind.” I stated, tightening my grip around my legs as tears burned my eyes.
“Niall will probably join us aswell.” Louis shrugged before throwing the cigarette off the wall. “It's up to you if you want to stay. Zayn, gimme another one.” he said, leaning over Zayn with his hand held out.
Zayn sighed and pulled the packet out from his jacket before handing it to Louis. Liam took a long sip from his beer and a loud thunder echoed in the distance. More clouds started to gather up in the sky, but that was nothing compared to the clouds shadowing my mind.
“I'm tired.” I mumbled and slowly stood up. “I'm going to sleep.”
“Okay, goodnight, love.” Liam gave me a small smile.
“Goodnight, Claire.” Zayn waved.
“Goodnight guys.” I said and climbed down the stairs before heading straight to my room.
I held my tears back until I entered my room. Once I closed the door, they slipped and rolled down my cheeks. It's heart-breaking; losing the one for you.
I crawled in bed, exhausted, both mentally and physically. The bandage around my arm reminded me of the wound I gained today. But the wound inside my heart couldn't get fixed with anything. Just him. But I lost him.
I closed my eyes, hoping that I will be able to forget him and move on quickly. He was the first to make me feel such intense feelings, it was indescribable.
It was quiet in the room for a moment. It was as if everything had stopped. I tried to think of ways to be with him, to make him stay, but I came out with none. It was hopeless.
A knock came on the door and I lifted my head from my pillow. “Who is it?” I asked, wiping my tears with my hand.
The door opened and Harry stepped inside, his green eyes drowned in sorrow and sadness, long hair messy. My heart stopped for a second and I sat up, anger and pain both flooding through me. He closed the door and that's when I noticed that he was holding a paper in his hand.
“What do you want?” I asked flatly, giving him a frustrated look. It hurt seeing him.
“We must talk.” He said, voice raspier.
“I have nothing else to say.” I spat, brushing my hair away from my face.
“You were crying again, weren't you?” he narrowed his eyes.
I glared at him and clenched my jaw. “Harry get out, we have nothing to talk about.” I snapped.
“Yes, we do.” he insisted and I stood up.
“Get the fuck out!” I raised my voice. My heart broke more and more with every second that passed by and he kept looking at me.
“No.” he argued lowly. “You have to listen to me, too, like I listened to you earlier.” he said and suddenly locked the door. “So I'm not going fucking anywhere until I say what I want.”
I sighed in frustration and crossed my arms overy chest, keeping my space between us. “Fine, get over with it then.” I urged flatly.
“I never wanted to hurt you.” he started, making me roll my eyes. “You know you and the boys are the closest to me, and I would do anything for you. And, I don't want to lose, you, Claire.” his words made my heart squirm.
Tears formed in my eyes. “You don't do much about it, though, do you?” I retorted.
He sighed and looked down. “I always follow orders, it's my job, my duty.” he stated before looking up at me. “Casey was testing all of you to see if you're ready to be transported to Brooklyn's campus, and you all failed. I didn't. I can't do much about that.” he shrugged casually.
“You can, you just don't want to.” I spat. “You and your fucking pride. Always doing the right thing, following your duty.” I said, moving my hands in the air out of frustration. “When will you do something that you want and stop sacrifisying everything because of your job?” I asked, furrowing my brows.
“That's why I'm here.” he said, making me frown. He lifted the hand that held the paper. “This is Casey's apply for my transportation. It has to be sent tonight, it says.” he looked down at it, green eyes thoughtful.
My heart broke. “I don't want you to leave.” I admitted, my voice shaky as tears now rolled down my cheeks.
He looked up at me sadly. “Neither do I.” he murmured. “And I won't,” he said and suddenly ripped the paper to pieces, making my heart jump. “I don't give a fuck, Claire. Since this paper hasn't been sent, it was never written. I'm not fucking going anywhere.” he gave me a small smile, making relief flood through my entire body, with chills travelling down my spine.
“Harry,” I breathed, a smile cracking on my face.
He came forward and I immidiately collapsed into his arms, hugging him tightly. It felt so good. The warmth and love I felt in that moment was everything. He hugged me tighter, his face near my ear.
“I love you,” I whispered, my voice small as tears of happiness and relief streamed down my face.
“I love you way more,” he whispered back, making my heart skip a beat. “And I realised it earlier, when you left crying,” he sighed, stroaking my hair. “God, it was so bad seeing you like that.”
“Don't you ever leave me, Harry.” I said, kissing his neck.
“I won't.” he promised, rocking from side to side. “You are more important than anything and anyone else.”
I pulled back to look at his face. My stomach was a mess and I felt so much relief that for a moment my body felt as if it was going to drop on the floor. I wrapped my arms around his neck.
“You are important to me, too.” I sighed, a smile forming on my lips.
He smirked back and pressed his lips against mine, sending sparks through me. It was such a strong and passionate kiss that I felt my heart race.
“I love you,” he murmured against my lips.
“I love you, too.” I said and he suddenly picked me up, making me squeal. He started walking towards the bathroom. “Wait, what are you doing?” I asked, pulling my lips away.
“We'll have a shower together,” he winked and he looked so handsome and sexy, that I couldn't deny.
I chuckled. “Can't get enough?” I asked, raising a brow.
“Too much is never enough.” he smirked and kissed me again.
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A/N: Short, I know, but I wanted to updare asap! Don't worry, the scene will be continued hahah please vote & comment a looooot! Thanks for everything! Love youuuuu xoxo