The Only Hope for Me is You

Chapter 21 : Cattitude

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I see him sleeping and I let him sleep.

I really didn't expect that he'd just flew across the country for him to see me and tell me how much he loves me. It's overwhelming.

I am a very, very spoiled woman and he is a very, very selfish man.

I couldn't help to cry now that he just poured his love on me. I know he's not yet whole and so am I, but here we are. We took a chance and who knows where this might take us but one thing is for sure, he chooses me as I choose him.

I love him. He loves me. That's more than enough.

I wouldn't ask anything much because for the first time in my life, a wish of mine has been granted.

I stood up and wore some clothes. As usual, we did sessions. He didn't stop until he drains himself on me, he doesn't stop calling my name, he doesn't stop saying how much he loves me.

Nalulunod ako Travis, pero buti na lang marunong akong lumangoy. Kung sinasabi mo na kulang pa ang mga naibigay mo para sa akin, nagkakamali ka, hindi naman tayo naglalamangan kasi para sa akin, sapat ka na.

You're more than enough for me.

I received a text from Peter, I couldn't help to feel a little sad kasi madami na silang napuntahan, sayang at hindi ako kasama. Kaya nga ako nagpunta dito para kahit papano makagala gala. Pero siguro ipagpapaliban ko na muna ang umalis ng hindi siya kasama.

I scroll down my phone and see that unknown number, whoever did this, I'm sure it was a set-up. Totoong nagpadaan ako sa galit at selos, but this is just a picture of him kissing Monique. Kirot sa dibdib ko, oo. Pero kung sino man ang nagsend sa akin nito, malas mo dahil kasama ko si Travis ngayon.

I erased the message and look back at him, I trust you Travis, I trust you faithfully. Kung ikaw nga inunawa ako, bakit ko naman ipagkakait sayo iyon?

Siguro nga nakaligtaan ko din ang naging insecurity ni Kenzo sa relasyon namin dati. Lagi niyang sinasabi na hindi niya ako maabot, kahit na ginagawan ko naman ng paraan para kahit papaano magkasama lang kami.

Am I that naive?

Ako lang ang adjust ng adjust dati dahil ayokong mag-adjust siya para sa akin. Come to think of it, kapag nagkakatampuhan kami laging ako ang lumalapit sa kanya ganoon ko na lang siya kamahal dati.

Nag-eeffort siya that's true, but not to the point that he'll just drop everything for me. Unlike Travis who just drops his class just to see me, who sacrifices his sleep just to find me that night when I decide to run away, who breaks himself just to prove how much I mean to him.

I know I shouldn't compare, but maybe that's the reason why I love Travis more than I love Kenzo.

I know in my heart I can't unlove Kenzo. He will be my first love forever, he is the reason why I changed to who I am now. The pain made me stronger and the stronger my love is, the better I could love Travis with the remains of my heart.

Maybe that's also what he felt for Monique.

I know I can't take that away from him even if I wanted to. Because before me, he only has her.