The Only Hope for Me is You

Chapter 76 : Whatever it Takes

T R A V I S

The second bet will happen today.

To be honest, I'm not that confident if I'll win this round because Pierre was right, I have no one with me since he got Gerard and Joshua with him. Madali rin naman ako mapapalitan sa grupo nila.

Kung tutuusin naman, kaya lang din naman ako nanatiling kasama nila ay dahil akala ko kapag nakipagkaibigan at mas napalapit pa ako sa mga taong katulad nila, maiiwas ko ang kapatid ko sa gulo na madalas na pangunahan ni Pierre.

In the first place, that's just it. I played along, kept my head down and did what I think was best for both worlds, even if it means that I hide the truth from the people around me.

Sa pagkakataong ito, hindi ko na naman na kailangang pakisamahan sila, ngunit, hindi ko rin naman maalis sa isipan ko ang minsan na nasabi ni Gerard sa akin dati. Na kahit magkaiba kaming apat, naging magkaibigan din naman ang samahang nabuo sa amin.

It's true that they're the only friends I got growing up. But was it called friendship when I know to myself that I'm not being completely honest with them?

Tama rin naman si Pierre sa sinabi niya, matagal tagal na rin akong nagpapanggap sa harapan nila, pero walang lihim na hindi nabubunyag.

Maybe, I'm just used to keeping something for myself because I wouldn't want to be vulnerable around anyone. I just wouldn't want to risk or bet onto something that I know I wouldn't win.

But then that changed...which turned my life around.

The world around me is changing and change is the only constant thing in this world.

Change will help you grow as a person.

Change will lead you to who you're supposed to be.

Yet this 'change' for me...

"Do you even know the gravity of what you're betting on, son?" I remember Papa asking me that question. He's obviously disappointed at me because I put some of his collected intels on the bet I just lost.

Maybe I got cocky, because I want to prove him something, especially that he planned this without me knowing and involved me in his revenge to get even with his enemy. I only asked Papa to entrust this task to me because I wanted to handle things my way, since this involves her in the given situation, maybe I'm still overprotective of her because this is something she's not familiar with.

Mas malawak ang mundo sa mga taong ganid sa kapangyarihan, impluwensya at mapagsamantala sa kapwa. Isa pa, biktima lang naman din siya dito sa sitwasyon na pilit niyang pina pakisamahan para lang maprotektahan din ang dangal ng pamilya niya.

I executed the plan how I imagined it to happen forgetting the possible ways of how this plan could turn things around me.

Am I doubting myself now? I shouldn't. Not this time and not ever.

Kailangan kong manindigan. Kailangan kong bumawi, hindi ako dapat matalo sa susunod na harapan namin ni Pierre, dahil kapag natalo ako, hindi lang si Papa ang na-disappoint ko, kundi pati na rin ng mga taong pinangakuan ko.

"You already lost her, yet why do you keep fighting for her?" Sa tanong na iyon ni Papa, hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong isagot, hindi ko alam kung dapat ba niya malaman ang tungkol kay Hope, ayoko na lang siyang mas madismaya sa kasalanan at kahihiyan na nagawa ko, siguro iyon na ang sikretong dadalhin ko hanggang sa huli.

Ipinaliwanag ko na lang kay Papa ang naging usapan namin ni Maxene noon sa paraan na makukumbinsi ko siyang maniwala sa akin, isa pa, hindi rin naman deserve ni Max na mapunta sa panibagong kulungan at maramdaman na wala siyang takas sa naging arrangement nila ni Pierre.