Sanders Sides Oneshots

It Isn't Easy (Moxiety & Logince)

Platonic Moxiety/Logince

Dedicated to all the people like me single on Valentine's Day. May you all have a friend or friends like Patton to share the platonic love this February 14th.

Virgil's POV

"Thoughts?"

I looked up from the couch at Roman, who had spent the past hour working on his outfit for his Valentine's Day date with Logan tonight.

"Lose the . . . Whatever those things are," I replied, pointing at Roman's cuff links, which were small bejeweled versions of his logo.

"Fine . . ." Roman said, removing them.

"Hey, you asked for my thoughts."

Roman rolled his eyes, setting the cuff links on the table. "Anything else?"

I shook my head. "You're fine, dude. I've never seen you so nervous before. You're acting like me."

Roman fidgeted with the hem of his shirt. "It's just that I've had a crush on him for forever, and I want to make sure everything's perfect."

"Nothing's perfect," I said simply, looking down at my phone again.

"Nobody's perfect," Roman corrected, then continued to sing the song's chorus.

"Ugh, seriously?"

"You know you love it," Roman replied after he finished singing, checking himself in the mirror he conjured.

No, I love you, I thought, then my cheeks went red. I moved, trying to hide my face with my hoodie.

I hate to admit it, but watching Roman get ready for a date with his long-time crush was like a knife to my heart. I couldn't help but feel a bit jealous. Okay, scratch that, very jealous.

I hated the feeling, and I felt guilty for feeling it at all. I've had a crush on Roman for a year now, but I could never tell him. Instead, I'll just sit on the sidelines, watching from a distance while he and Logan are happy together, because let's face it, Logan is bound to have a crush on him. Who wouldn't?

A door upstairs opened, and I slowly looked up, just as Logan appeared at the top of the stairs, Patton grinning proudly behind him.

Roman looked up as well, and a wide grin spread across his face. Logan went red, then walked downstairs.

"You look amazing," Roman said. The compliment twisted the knife in my heart.

"I—thank you," he said. "You also look, well."

Patton locked eyes with me, face palming. I gave him a small smile, despite how I was screaming inside.

"Shall we go?" Roman asked, as princely as ever. He held an arm out, and Logan hesitantly looped his, and they walked to the door, shutting it behind them. A few minutes later, I heard a car start. Roman had told me earlier that they had gotten permission from Thomas to go on a date outside the mind, and he was so excited that he even offered up his car for them to use.

I sighed, forgetting Patton was still in the living room.

"What's wrong, kiddo?" he said, sitting next to me in the couch, his voice concerned.

I turned to look at him, chewing on my lip. I trusted Patton, I really did. He was like an actual dad, always there to help me when he noticed I wasn't doing well.

"Promise you won't tell anyone?" I say.

He nodded. "Of course."

I nodded back, taking a deep breath before saying, "I-I have a crush on Roman, and I'm a little jealous." I scowled, looking at the floor, then corrected myself. "Really jealous."

I looked back up at Patton, who's expression was unreadable. I wouldn't say I was completely surprised, but I expected him to have some kind of reaction.

"Virge," he said after a while. "It's okay to feel these sort of things sometimes. I know, it's painful, but you'll get through it, I promise. It might take a while, but I know you will." Patton looked sad, I noticed, and I bit my lip again.

"We could watch a movie?" I suggested, trying to take his mind off of whatever was making him sad.

"Sure," Patton said. "You choose. I'll be back in a minute or two." The other side sunk down, and I went to the cabinet filled with all our movies, looking through the titles. True to his word, Patton appeared two minutes later, just as a I put a movie in the DVD player.

I sat down on the couch, and Patton sat beside me. His face had small droplets of water on it, as if he splashed himself with it, then tried to wipe it off. Maybe he did.

The movie started, and Patton's face lit up. "Winnie the Pooh?!" he asked excitedly.

I blushed slightly, rubbing the back of my neck. "I, uh, remembered that you said it was your favorite."

Patton smiled, then leaned forward, hugging me. My eyes widened, and I didn't know what to do, so I just pat his back lightly until he pulled away.

"Ooh, Can you pause? I want to get something!"

I reached for the remote as Patton went to the kitchen, coming back with two sodas and two brownies. He handed me one of each thing, and I frowned slightly.

"Patt, you didn't have to get me these," I say, referring to the brownie and drink.

"I know, that's what makes me so nice," he said, smiling a little wider.

"Wicked?" I guessed.

He nodded happily. "Yup!"

I rolled my eyes, though I smiled, picking up the remote and pressing play.

*
A few hours and three movies later, Logan and Roman came back, and surprisingly, Logan was laughing at something Roman had said. I felt that familiar ache in my heart, but Patton leaned over, whispering, "It's okay, kiddo. Just focus on the movie."

I nodded, and it actually worked.

Roman and Logan passed through the living room, going upstairs. I gripped my soda can, but gently released it, trying to remember what Patton had told me.

"You did great, Virge," Patton said with a smile.

"I . . . really?"

Patton's smile grew into a grin, and he raised his soda can like a toast. "Really."

I found myself returning his grin with a smile, raising my can as well. He clinked them together, and we went back to watching the movie.

This wouldn't be easy, dealing with my feelings for Roman, but like Patton said, I'll get through it.

*
Hey, y'all! You guys probably didn't expect this kind of story for Valentine's Day. I wanted to write something a little different, capturing the other side of the day. Unrequited love, jealously, etc. And believe me, it sucks, but like Patton said, we'll get through it.

Fun fact: This is my first oneshot in here with a first POV.

If you would like to read a more lovey Valentine's Day themed story by me, please check out "Fall Into Me," which will be out on February 14th.

Enjoy, ~Kirs.