I'm so stupid.
Today I guess I snapped?
It was at Soonyoung.
He came into my room early and sat down. He inspected me and asked me if I felt okay while holding a soft smile.
I told him I did but he knew better than to believe me.
He told me "You don't have to lie to me Jihoonie, you can tell me when you're in pain."
"But you'd have to tell the doctors, there's nothing wrong-"
He cut me off with a gentle, soft tone. "I don't believe that." He whispered.
For some reason that shot me into reality. In that moment I realized that everything that is or ever once was could be gone.
I didn't angrily snap or anything. I just got upset.
"Well you don't have to then." I replied.
He gave a sympathetic look. "Jihoon that's not what I meant."
"I don't care if you do or not. What's the point? I'm gonna die eventually."
By saying this he got hurt.
He stared at me and for a long time.
"You know, you need to open your mind more. You're alive right now, you're lucky." And with that he stood up and left abruptly.
I think he's mad at me.
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Put flowers on the desk. (Soonhoon)
FanfictionLee Jihoon is sick, and he know he is, but he doesn't understand what he has. The countless hours as the hospital let's him know whatever he has is bad, but how bad could his life be if he met Soonyoung? Every day he wakes up with flowers on his de...
