My Living Nightmare - Tom Kaulitz

I'll Make You Scream

*Tom's P.O.V*

"Tom" she whispered.

Her soft sweet voice ran through my ears and it sent a painful jolt to my heart. It made me stop, pause in my moment of destroying this girls innocence, of ripping that delicate line that had never been crossed. Her whisper kept swaying through my head though she was now silent, laying beneath me in defeat, as if she was already broken. My finger still lay against her warm skin, so close to what she was trying to protect. I hated this girl; she was annoying and always getting in my way, so why did I stop? Why haven't I destroyed her already, shut her up for good. I slid my finger out from her and it was silent for she had stopped crying and I was no longer panting from excitement, now I was just breathing slowly. I watched as her chest rose and fell gently, slowly, she was calm now, like she was taking her defeat easily. My eyes looked down among her beautiful body before looking to her blue eyes, her sad, fearful blue eyes. They glistened in the light from the many tears I had caused, from the pain I had caused. She didn't look at me, it was as if she was too scared and it broke my heart to see her this way. I mentally slapped myself, bringing myself to reality, to how I hate this annoying girl named Taylor. I wonder if all Taylor's are this annoying. No, she's one of a kind...to me. I grabbed her chin roughly and made her face me "Take that as a warning" I spat at her before pulling myself away from her.

I grabbed my shirt that was lying on the bed and put it on before reaching the door. I placed my hand on the door handle and stopped to look back at her. She had already wrapped the sheet around her breasts but was still lying in place; I pictured myself a few seconds ago, lying on top of her delicious body, laughing at her pain. I swallowed harshly, then opened the door and left her in the dark.

Once I was down the hall I quickly turned into the bathroom and closed the door before throwing some of the girls' belongings to the floor. I slammed my fists against the counter before tossing around some more items. Why did I stop! Why did I stop! I'm Tom Kaulitz, no sympathy for anyone, especially not a pet, their pet's, their animals yet I felt for her, she made me feel horrible for what I had done, for what I was doing. I took a long look in the mirror, studied myself, stared straight into my eyes...I am a monster...but I liked that fact...I kill innocent people, rape innocent girls, steal...yet I've never felt bad for what I did, for what I do, I loved it, I loved the rush...I loved what I was doing to her, I was ready to rape her, to beat her around a bit more harder than what I usually do, yet I stopped, her voice, saying my name made me stop. I groaned loudly, infuriated by Taylor, the broken girl lying in pieces on my bed. I slammed my fists into the mirror, sick of looking at myself and wanting a way to release some tension. The glass shattered loudly and pieces fell into the sink and on the counter. My hands jolted with a fierce sting, yet I ignored it with a slight grunt before slamming my fists into the mirror for the last time. A few pieces smashed on the floor, some little pieces sticking into my feet. I pulled my hands to my face, they dripped of blood, a few chunks of shattered glass were pried in my hands and I left them, feeling drowsy from the pain. I left the bathroom and made my way down the hall back to my bedroom. I could imagine what Taylor was feeling, how terrified she was as she heard my footsteps coming down the hall, how she heard the door opening and saw my shadow standing in the doorway, it made me sick. My eyes shot to her, she was huddled in the corner crying, she looked as though she was trying to collect herself, she was already dressed and out of the bed, away from the crime scene. I walked past her, ignoring Yumi as she called me to bed. I flicked on the light and heard Yumi gasp. Her little footsteps came running towards me "Tom, what did you do?" She said, putting that long 'e' at the end of my name as always, you'd think the girl didn't even know my name was actually Tom.

She started grabbing for my hands "Watch it bitch!" I yelled at her, pulling my hands away from her "Fuck" I cursed, annoyed at her greediness.

"What did you do?" She asked, turning on the hot water for me.