unconditional (BOOK #2) [TO BE PUBLISHED]

Chapter 4

A/N: not edited and typed in a HURRYYYY! 

Chapter Four (Chelsea POV) 

We had yet to actually enter the house; just resting against the car while the two cars following us went to pack in the garage, using that entrance as well.

Gabriel it seemed wanted control before moving so much as an inch in its direction.

Me? I was starting to come to terms with a few truths. I wasn't the unchanged person that would freak herself out, to panic, to count to until triple digits. Doing so frequently. Yes, sometimes it was done, but not any more a daily occurrence. Why?  Simple. Gabriel was my own sort of personal anxiety medication. Around him, whether I wanted too or not my world slowed down and went at a pace I felt I might do more than just exist in, with him I would be able to participate, actually live. But it wasn't some codependency situation, where I was only brave enough to venture with Gabriel, I was learning to slow things down in my head even when I wasn't physically with him.

 Mates can do that, be that for each other, show and open apart of yourself that isn't easily accessible... Aria told me.

And in a small amount of time he was bringing me out of my shell in a way no one else had before. It made me think though, how much of what I was feeling experiencing emotionally and mentally was the mate bond and what amount; piece of myself alone affected me on my own. Could the two even be characterized as different things now?  Would there be a time where, those two parts would be impossible to separate? But anti anxiety medication mate and all... I still had worries.

Things with us were going slow and I was shocked that even with our baby steps, he had seeped into being a part of me, of who I was. I had gone from orphaned twice, to mother, mate and Alpha. Well... Luna.

I briefly wondered if Gabriel felt and harbored the same feelings? Did it worry him that he had become that person to me? The one I thought of before I entered a peaceful slumber? Was it wrong that he was on my mind first thing in the morning? And I worried endlessly about what type of burden, to him, would my gifts bring. Would he understand, why I kept them hidden? And if I felt so deeply about him why couldn't I tell him about myself? Showed him that side?

 There is no pressure child... Avena stepped in to ease the revolving door of questions. Yet, last, but not least I worried about Gabriels demise, and how diligent I needed to be with keeping him safe. He was a werewolf like myself, but could die permanently like other wolves, he had an affinity for silver, wolfs' bane, Juniper Ash, even bullets...

All types of morbid thoughts ran wild; it was a tricky or slight dilemma that I could easily put to rest however. Completing our mating bond would make him like me, but I didn't want to cross over into that stage of our relationship with him just so I could ease my fears. I deserved better than that and so did Gabriel. I was starting to believe that if, for any reason I did complete the bond with him, without telling him all, it would bring down a shower of pain for the both of us.

"Baby..."

"Hmmm?" I focused back to the beautiful man that held me close.

"You want to watch a movie? Or maybe a late night swim?" Gabriel asked.

I took a few seconds to think about his offer... hmm... so it seemed that our date wasn't exactly over. It never really had to end, at the end of the night I still found myself in his arms.

"Movie..." I decided.

"Movie it is then sweetheart," he said pulling me inside after opening the door. When we were at the stairs Gabriel told me to go on up because he was going to get us water and whatever sweet treat he could find. My mate had a sweet tooth.