Freya
It had been 5 days since Becca was born, and I was absolutely shattered.
Corey been useless towards Becca but fantastic towards me, I hated that he hadn't got a bond with her but I didn't have the strength to argue with him.
Every day had been hard, which I thought I was strange because I had such an easy birth.
I was feeling worse then ever today.I couldn't keep any food down and I had lost a stone since having Becca!
I couldn't breast feed because it hurt so much and Becca wouldn't latch.I thought I would enjoy being a mom watching her grown, but I'm not enjoying it at all, all I want to do is sleep.
I heard Becca crying and Corey wouldn't bring her to me, so Sofia came in and helped me with her.
She did some housework and bathed Becca for me.I feel like the worst mom In the world as I fell asleep again on the sofa.
When I woke up I felt blood all down my legs, I was bleeding again, heavier than usual.
I asked Sofia to help me shower, i felt so weak I couldn't do it alone.
I didn't want to show Corey I was weak, he had argued with Sofia and went to his mother for the night.
I couldn't stand to look at him, I knew it was hard for him to be a dad but it's not like she's not his!She's his flesh and blood and since she was born he had hardly been able to even look at her.
I begged Sofia that if anything was to happen to me she wouldn't let Corey have Becca.She of course called me stupid saying I was going to live a long life, but do you ever feel like something wrong you don't feel yourself?
I felt like I was in the wrong body."Freya you've lost so much weight? Is that normal after birth?" Sofia asked when I was getting dressed.
"I'm not sure, but I'm bleeding so heavy it's just pumping out of Me." I said with a frown.
Sofia looked worried. "I'm calling a doctor."
"I just want to sleep, I'm sure I'll be fine tomorrow Sofia don't worry." I smiled at her. Drama queen she is.
"I just want to make sure please." Sofia looked worried.
"Becca is due to be weighing so I'll get looked at then." I sighed.
Sofia nodded. "I'm coming with you."
She packed me a bag with clean clothes because I keep bleeding through everything and a change of clothes for Becca and a bottle.
She helped me out towards the car slowly I felt like my insides were being ripped out.When we got to the hospital I didn't really feel to well.
Before I knew it I was woken up in a hospital bed with wires all around me."Hello Freya, you collapsed" Ria said to me. She was my doctor.
"Oh hi Ria where is Becca?" I asked worried.
"She's fine she's with Jaxon he came and got her, he's just walking her around the hospital she's weighs a healthy 6lb 9ozs! She's perfect the nurse said." Sofia smiled at me.
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