On the bank of the river

~ My life ~

" Empress Edna , from now on golden palace will be yours ."

That palace was the golden palace made with precious stones, jade and gold , you built for me . Everyone was envious when you granted me that palace . People said I'm unworthy to lived in such palace . Yes , I'm unworthy. But I just want your love .... nothing else .

I thought it was a castle to represent our love , not a object that you wanted to throw at me . In those few years when I was still yours Empress , palace remained empty . It is empty without your presence . I didn't know about how luxurious it is or there behind story . As long as it was from you, I accepted happily . I thought we will live here peacefully - till death apart us . Now it was nothing but mere cold palace without you , My king ! I didn't care about anything as I didn't care about my title as the Empress of great Hui Empire.

"I , Li Edna only want your little love and protection. Is is much to ask ? Why you were ignoring my presence , your highness ! Can you not trust me for once ?"

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My life is always been simple . As a left over unlucky girl , I was blessed as you were willing to take me as your wife. I was happy ... ! Just I forget to understand that even if time changes quickly, heart also changes as well . We , women were nothing but their fate always connected in hands of their husband. Is falling in love with your own husband bad ? I only wish to happy !

" You murderer, you killed my son ." Princess Rubi accused me loudly .

" No , I'm not . Please believe me your highness. I didn't. Someone pushed me from back ." Emperor Lee coldly gaze at Edna .

" Kneel ." Emperor shouted madly . I don't know why no one has been believing me now . I didn't killed our little nephew .

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As days went by , I took noticed on your change of mood . You never looked at me . Please believe me .... once !

" Emperor ! You have to grant your old mother justice . Empress Edna had poisoned me ...." Suddenly Empress dowager fainted in Royal study room infront of the Emperor.

" Mother ." Emperor shouted painfully .

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Then what ? You purposely abandoned me .........

" Empress Edna , you are under house arrest for trying to poisoning Empress Dowager . From now on you will no longer take control over the imperial harem ." Head Steward Lu had given me the royal decree .

They had falsely accused me , your own Empress .... and you didn't trust me for a bit ? Is it your love for me ? Please believe me for once .

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" Marry me and you will be my Queen." He replied to me .

" No ." I had directly refused him , coldly. I don't have trust on marriage.

" I , Li Edna will forever live alone than marrying someone else . From now on , I will not give my heart and trust to anyone ."

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Then suddenly, someone bring me a light to my darkness . Should I trust it ? Human heart , I sighed . Again I fall in the trape of love !

" My queen . I will forever love you .You will always be my only love ." He told me softly.

"My king , I'll always be yours. You are the love of my life ." Edna replied lovingly .

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" Long live Empress Edna , you are the goddess of this Kingdom. You are the life of this Kingdom." People cheered for me loudly and happily. I felt all amazing.

...... Being the deposed Empress at past , I had suffered so much . Now I always feared for fakeness . I feel like all were dreams and suddenly everything will change again . I feared . I fear for being lonely !

" I , Li Edna had suffered so much in this life . All I wants is little love and protection from the man , I loved . Am I going to find my true love ? Am I that worthy for living ? I questioned myself always . Will I ever get the blessing for..... a perfect ending of my unwanted life ? "