On the bank of the river

Chapter 84 : Wild dream !

Family and being pampered ..... this is unfamiliar to me like my birth mother. I don't know who is she or her love and care for me as her child. Neither I have utter this word "mother" towards someone nor I had any familiarity. Actually, I really don't know ... what's behind this mother word !

I have never understand the value and warmth from this word , not even in this vast palace of mine.

Actually I was grown up without a mother !

Who is she?

Where does she lives ?

What is her love ?

What is her care?

What is mother?

How does it feels by having her warmth !

What is her affection?

What means to be grumpy and spoiled ?

What does means to have a full family ...... I don't know. Actually, answer of those questions were kind of confused and strange for me. Sometimes I wondered if mother will come back in my life. Several maids told me that she is a bright star of the night sky. In books, stories says that star could turn into a human ! I wish for some love , the way others were getting .... from my parents !

Sometimes the younger me left confused and blankly called my one of maids - mother ! I tried to refer them as mother, I really wants to utter this name to someone.

But it's strange whenever I tried to speak this word , it's even strange whenever I have no one to refer to ... ?

One time , I thought that my grandma was the one , I was searching for. She's my mother. But she refused. And about my father, it turned more complicated for me and his relation ... he was there but he rarely visited me. But it confused me more when my playmates of imperial academy laughed at me when I referred my grandma as mother.

Being the royals , we were forced to act matured from an early age. Learning etiquettes and behaving as an imperial family should do ... I was spending by days to become a better me unlike my other classmates. Slowly I understood that I can't responed anyone as mother. I was forced to except the reality that I really can't. But curiosity always following behind me with thousands words.

Where is she actually? Did she hated me as well ?

Actually, it amuses me everytime and sadden me too , when my maids became concerned for me , knowing I really wished to meet my mother. They pitied me , while trying to showered me with their love and care. So that I could forget my this unhappiness. I only shook my head and chuckled. Even through I'm a little girl , I understands certain things too !

The raining kept on pouring slightly, but Aimei seems immersing into her own world.

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Inside the chamber, the maid servant who was trying to follow her princess , unknowingly fall asleep from the afternoon and suddenly woke up in hurry. She noticed the empty bed infront of her which awaken her drowsiness.