Love You With The Lights On (Lesbian teacherxstudent Story)

thirty three

I dropped my dance bag off in the dance room and Guidry stopped me.
"How you holding up?" She lightly held my shoulder.
I shrugged.
"If you ever need anything, you know I'm here for you, right?" She questioned me.
"Yes ma'am." I nodded.
"I'm not kidding. You're like my baby! I have a different love for you than the rest of these girls." She smiled at me.
She's so beautiful. I can't wait to see what her actual baby looks like. If it's anything like her, they'll be more than blessed.
"I love you." I nodded and leaned in to hug her.
She really has been like a second mom to me for the past 3 (almost 4) years. She's always been there. She's helped me financially while mom was laid off for 6 months. She's taken me to competitions when mom's car wouldn't start. She's done so much for me.
"You know you're my favorite?" She held me.
"You're my favorite." I mumbled against her.
"You sure you're not replacing me with Emily? Parker?" She pushed me to look into my eyes.
"Shut up. She could never be you. It's different." I shook my head, smiling.
"Good. My girl." She smiled at me, then pulled me back in.
The bell rang signaling the start of the day.
"Be sure to tell Emily what we talked about." She released me.
"I— no we can't. It'll hurt her feelings." I laughed.
"You've been my girl for way longer!" She called after me.
"Love youuuu!" I drew out.
"Love you, sweet girl." She waved.
I left the dance room and headed to first period. Happier than normal, because I missed Emily's face.
"Hey, Ms. Parker!" I beamed as I entered the room.
"Hey, goofy." She shook her head, smiling.
I walked up to her desk, leaned my hands in the middle of it, and whispered "I missed you."
She smiled sweetly and laid her hand over mine.
I turned my hand over and rubbed small circles into her wrist and smirked at her, then said "Like really missed you."
She gripped my wrist and looked at me seriously.
"Don't start. I will take you here." She threatened.
"And why wouldn't I want that?" I asked.
"You are on something new this morning." She smiled.
Her teeth are so perfect.
"No, I just didn't get to really see you yesterday." I shrugged.
She bit her lip and released my hand and looked back at her work.
"Love you." I whispered.
"I love you." She smiled up at me.
As soon as I stood up straight, another student entered the room. I smiled at her and took my seat in a desk near her.
Mallory entered in a hurry, sat down hard, and looked at me wildly.
"So, it happened." She had wide eyes.
"What happened?" I asked.
"I had sex." She smiled.
"What?" I was surprised.
Mallory was the innocent one in our group. I can't believe she had sex before Kota. Mallory was seeing this college boy named Christian for a while now. I just hope he doesn't hurt her. She's too good for everyone.
"Yes! He took me to dinner and then my parents were out of town, so we went back to my house." She looked happy.
I turned over my shoulder and saw Emily looking at us with her eyebrows scrunched.
"You were ready?" I asked.
"More than ready." She confirmed.
I pressed my lips together and looked away.
"Don't give me that look! We all know about you and Lauren." She rolled her eyes.
My heart stopped. Lauren was my first girlfriend. We were only kids, but we seriously dated from 12-16. She had gotten me into bed with her and a boy and long story short, she left me for him. As soon as she left me, the event got spread and everyone knew what happened. She was the person I lost my virginity to, she was everything to me for 4 years. Then he came into the picture and ruined my life. She has moved away since everything spread, but she still follows me on Instagram and Twitter.
I nodded and smiled "I'm so happy for you."
"Lainey, I'm sorry. That was a shitty thing to bring up." She said lower.
"It's fine. It's the truth, so—" I shrugged and turned straight in my seat, avoiding eye contact with Emily. I hadn't told her about Lauren.
"Lainey, I'm seriously sorry." She leaned closer to me.
"I know." I snapped at her.
I wish she had used literally any example of me having sex other than Lauren. Lauren was a soft spot that is known to be untouchable.
I slumped in my seat. My good mood lasted a whole hour before being crushed.
I peeked at Emily and she looked at me. I couldn't tell the look she held, but I knew it couldn't be good.
I couldn't say sorry, so I looked away instead. I'll have to explain that whole story later. I had completely moved on from it, but somehow it always comes back when I think I'm over her.
I am over her.
Aren't I?
I love Emily.
Right?
I couldn't think straight, so I stood as soon as the bell rang to begin class and walked out of class with all of my stuff.
"Alaina, where are you going?" Emily called out.
Tears stung as I quickened my pace to carry myself out of the room. I headed to the only place I could go, the dance room.
"Yes ma'am I will let you know if I see her." I heard Guidry's voice sound.
I quietly closed the door and walked into the office.
"Uh huh— actually she just walked in. I have her." She smiled at me.
"I will send her back soon." She nodded. "Bye, babe."
She hung up the phone and looked at me questioningly.
I shook my head and looked down.
"Come here." She motioned and stood. I walked over to her desk and sat in the now vacant seat, while she half-sat on her desk.
"Talk to me." She motioned her hands.
"Mallory brought up something that I couldn't handle, so I walked out." I didn't look at her.
"Baby, we cant be walking out of class like this. Emily said she overheard what Mallory said, but didn't think it was anything for you to stress about." Guidry played with my hair soothingly.
"She doesn't know anything about it." I shook my head.
"Tell me then." She opened herself to me.
I swallowed and looked up to her.
I shook my head and tears came back.
"Oh god, what was it?" She sounded worried.
"Lauren." I let the tears fall.
"Oh, baby." She slid off of the desk and lifted me up, then sat with me in her lap.
She just held me and I cried.
A bell rang and within moments, the door opened and I heard heels clicking quickly.
I had moved to one of the chairs across from Guidry now, but sat curled up, my nose bright red, and exhausted from crying so much.
"Lainey?" Emily's voice sounded small.
I turned my head toward her, then looked away again.
Guidry gave me eyes, telling me to talk to her.
"I'm sorry for walking out. I just couldn't be in there any longer." I didn't look at her, but stared straight ahead.
"Go ahead and go to class, baby girl." Guidry spoke to me.
I didn't look at either of them, I just stood and walked out. I was late to second period, but my teacher didn't mind.
All I could think about this morning was what they could have possibly said about me.
Was Emily mad or upset about me not telling her? We had plans for tonight. I was supposed to go over to her place tonight. Does she still want me to? If I did, would we have to talk about it? Because I don't want to. I'm not ready to.
"Alaina, class ended, love." My teacher called from his desk.
"Oh yeah." I shook my head and gathered my things to walk out.
I need to focus on school.
Officer period rolled around quicker than I expected and the officers decided we should choreograph a dance to Burnin' Up by Jessie J for one of our officer routines.
We were literally dripping in sweat by the end of what we choreographed.
We were running through it again to show Guidry and the team, when the bell to dismiss 6th period sounded. We finished the run through and got water as the other girls filed in and changed into the required practice clothes. All 7 officers returned and took roll of their squad members, besides me and Reagan, because we don't have squads.
After taking roll, we went over and cleaned the football routine we would be performing this Friday. We have after school practice on Mondays, so when the bell rang, we didn't rush to get ready.
Instead, Guidry reappeared in the dance room and Emily followed closely.
"So girls, listen up!" Guidry called and paused the music.
We all turned toward the two women standing by the radio. They smiled at each other and then Guidry finally spoke "It's still being worked out, but as of now, we're expecting Ms. Parker to be our Assistant Director."
The girls broke out with "Aw"s and "That's awesome!"s and "Yay"s, I just smiled at her and she smiled back at me.
Reagan smiled and said "We'd hug you, but uh— we're just a little sweaty."
Reagan turned and made eyes at me, before grabbing her turner from the front and putting it back on. Hiding everything is proving to be just a little bit harder than we thought.