547 days

27.5

Dear diary

I took two painkillers this morning before work and it's done the job lol. Hopefully I'll be feeling better soon inshAllah. I don't really complain about this stuff I don't think so only iehab and harisa know that I'm in pain 😂 I told my mum yesterday cos she seen the prescription bag thing.

I don't like the distance between me and A. I don't like where we are at. I've been avoiding talking about it.

Anyways I'm parked up at work now, so I need to go in. It seems empty. Haven't had breakfast but again, got no appetite, partly cos I'm a little sad about this whole situation between me and A. Can't help it, I love my food but when I'm feeling stressed or sad it's like I shut down. Don't think my body copes well with stress I think I make myself ill unintentionally. Hence the infection and pain.

I'm parked up and all I can remember and see is A surprising me that day at work and I literally ran to him and hugged him. The memory playing like a film before my eyes.

I haven't taken lunch with me either but I think I need to have food with antibiotics like I can't go the entire day with just antibiotics on an empty stomach so I might buy food here.

I just hope things will get better in terms of everything ❤️‍🩹

6:54am