547 days

Silent night

I have so much to write about and I started writing a few hours ago but then honey facetimed me. I used to say things won't ever be the same between us but I take that back. I think the time on placement really got to both of us and we even mentioned that the other day how placement brought the worst of us like us being together constantly was crazy but the good thing with us we are literally like a married couple. I've never argued with a friend the way me and her have but we sit down and talk through it and we make it work and understand and care and genuinely love each other.

Like I said I have LOADS to write about so I shall be doing that tomorrow but I started my period in uni today and I had cramps and I had to stand and present with cramps and I even unbuttoned my cargos to relieve some pressure on my abdomen cos being on my period bloats me sometimes. It was painful during uni but its okay right now. I have mild but uncomfortable cramps in bed right now and I've been so emotional I literally cried an hour ago cos my mum asked me to watch something with her and I said I'll come down but ended up speaking to honey for 2 hours and 4 mins so when I went down I saw my mum fell asleep on the sofa and the wave of guilt that crashed over me made me break. I kissed her forehead lightly so she wouldn't wake up but I ended up sobbing bc she asked me something and I couldn't even do that.

My period emotions are all over the shop floor today I feel it so much but luckily my pains are manageable.

I'm extremely tired. Im so drained. I'm exhausted. Luckily I didn't have to contribute to any PBL presentation work for tomorrow. I'm praying I sleep well today. No dreams. No waking up. No sadness. Just me and imaginative brain.

Tomorrows diary entry is gonna be so long lol.

I might be going to see Einaudi for my birthday and I'm soooo excited! Think I'll be going with honey even asked mum tonight 😻 I wanted to write that tomorrow but it's all I've been thinking about but it depends if I can get tickets but they go live tomorrow and are only live for like a day. It's in Dublin. 4th is Scotland and 5th is Dublin. I've been to Scotland before and I've always wanted to go to Ireland so I asked her and she said yeh:)

Honey said I should wait and savour this experience for the future cos I told her I wanted to go to his Rome concert and even my mum said she wouldn't mind going to the Rome one with me but honey said this is a romantic thing and should do it with my future husband it'll be so romantic but I was like who knows when I'll get married and Einaudi is like 67 I think so what if he dies

Good night diary.
22:29pm