The Other Brother (SLOW UPDATES)

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I had rambled to Justin for hours about my day with Alec when in reality, it hadn't been all that fantastic. However, it still felt as if i had the responsibility to have this decade long crush on him, and therefore owed Justin an earful of just how exciting it had been to spend a day with him. In reality, it felt dull. Forced.

I wasn't sure if it was because my feelings were fading or because of the guilt at the pit of my stomach nagging at me for kissing Justin and then continuing to pine after Alec. Though I seriously doubted i could lose feelings this easily when i had been crazy over him for so long.

Maybe it was Alec, even he seemed like he was forcing conversation, trying to move things along. Maybe he was the reason our vibe was so off.

Either way, i couldn't help but feel quite disappointed in myself for everything that had happened. I wouldn't say I regretted kissing Justin, especially with the way he's listening to me so intently right now with a cute little smile on his face and a dimple poking his cheek. But I didn't know how to feel about it.

So, i did what i do best and pushed the thought farther down a darker hole and ignored it, like i had done the previous days. It's my new talent.

After sharing a few more laughs with him and sharing experiences about our days, Justin stood up and stated it was time for him to go home.

I led him to the door like the responsible girl i am when he stopped and turned around, smirking at me. My heart stopped for a second, breathing coming to a halt not knowing what to expect. Was he going to kiss me again? This seemed to be one of my biggest worries recently.

When he placed his hand on my shoulder and leaned in to my face, I almost forced myself to shout 'no' outloud. Instead, i shut my eyes tightly and waited.

Embarrassment flooded my system as i felt the brush of his lips against my cheek instead and heard the low (and madly attractive) chuckle in my ear.

"Don't worry 'Fie, wont kiss you," he whispered and i swear i felt my face catching fire. "Not yet." He winked and turned back around to leave.

I quickly shut the door behind me after squeaking out a 'bye' and fanned my face as soon as it slammed behind me.

Fuck, I really needed to get myself in check. This is not how any girl should react to the asshole that is Justin Adams.

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After walking back to my room and calming myself down, i finally checked my phone for the first time since Alec and i parted.

Alec<3 : today was really fun Fie. Hope you'll find it in yourself to ditch Justin again and go out w me again ;)

I couldn't help but smile confusedly at his text. The nickname, alongside with the rest of the message, did a weird thing to my heart. That was the first time he called me that nickname, it had always been Justin who called me that. And i used to hate it, i always thought it sounded so stupid. But recently, i had grown accustomed to it and really, it made my heart race whenever i heard it. However, hearing it from Alec made me feel almost .. guilty? It was so silly, it was simply just a shorted version of my name but it was causing such a ruckus inside my heart.

Me: haha I'll think about it :)

Now that I finally had time to myself to think, i realise that Alec certainly didn't talk or act as if he thought Justin and I were really 'partners'. I racked my brain trying to figure out if i had ever let it slip that we weren't actually, but i couldn't quite remember anything. Maybe Justin and I hadn't been that great of actors?

With embarrassment filling up my stomach for the second time tonight, i picked up my phone and texted Justin a 'we need to talk' and then placed it to the side.