Part of the pack

56 || Hating him

I imagine one of the reasons people cling to their hate so stubbornly is because they sense, once hate is gone, they will be forced to deal with pain.

- James Baldwin

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I have a bad feeling, it wasn't like trusting the weather notification in your phone and finding out that it wouldn't happen or when your favorite actress told you about a product that literally does nothing to you. This gut she's feeling was nothing like that- it was much sinister.

I had finally arrived at the hotel where Fenrir once worked and the moment I stepped into the hotel room I could feel something that was amiss.

Usually, people who had suffered from the aftermath two days ago would be panicking, their eyes would always show the fear that they tried hard to conceal and the way they just languidly walk into the hallways made me frown.

The atmosphere seems free, the choking fear that strangled everyone's breath seems to be missing and everyone has smiles on their faces- not just the employees but the customers that I have passed by.

I then turned to my right and went inside the elevator and punched the fifth floor. Two women came in as well and continued their discussion.

"Should we invite our friends later? I heard the bar was already in construction but there's a new one"

"We should totally go there, I heard drinks are fifty percent off since it's their first opening!"

Their conversation left me in confusion, they look like they didn't care about the impending conflict that would happen in a few days. They were acting like nothing happened, that the monster they tried to kill and the forest they now wanted to burn was all but an illusion and it's making me scared.

I don't know what's happening. Then my head suddenly went back to the time where a witch manipulated the town's memory and erased the fear that comes from the issue regarding the lost people.

Could it be a witch's doing? Was their memory manipulated again? I wouldn't know it since I still have the necklace that Lukka gave to me, protection from a witch's curse.

I wanted to ask them to confirm my suspicions but they have already left, I could only do it then after arriving at their hotel room. Thankfully I had reached their place and knocked on the door, Hati opened it and I didn't notice the conflict in her eyes and wander around, trying to see Lukka's figure.

It's been so long since I've seen him, I gathered that they would be busy trying to solve the problem that was left to them by that wolf. I didn't want to pose any problem for them and delay their business that's why I didn't contact them much after hearing the incident that happened two days ago.

"Where's Lukka?" I asked Luna, the air around her seems to get colder the moment I asked them this question.

I have always set my eyes upon Lukka, with him by my side I would immediately feel at ease and the moment I step in here, I don't. I could hear the furious beating of my heart and it was like drums being played beside me.

My eyes drifted towards the triplets but they wouldn't look at me, they seem stiff and I could feel the unusual mood hovering around their heads.

"What happened?" I gripped my bag, a slight panic happens to flash in their eyes and I immediately thought of the worse. "Is he... Is he dead?" I could feel my voice trembling and the moment they opened their lips, I felt my heart sink a bit further.

Just thinking about his lifeless body made my body fell into an ice cellar, it was like pins and needles were being poked into my head.

"He's not he's just away"

"What do you mean?"

Luna tried to calm me down but it wasn't working, I feel my breath getting shorter as I run around the room trying to look for Lukka, even his shadow hasn't appeared.

"Where is he? He just went out for a mission or something right? He'll come back to me right?" I was getting desperate for answers but seeing the clear pity in Luna's eyes just broke me down and I just slumped down the floor.

I didn't hear their worried voices nor did I hear Hati calling for my name over and over again. I didn't notice my body being lifted away from the floor and being seated into the bed nor did I see the helplessness in Maico's eyes.

Eyes hollowly watching the window, a bird then came near it pecking the wood but then appeared its own, they soon fly sway together never once looking back. Then I burst into tears, anguished filled my voice and I find myself getting into a fetal position as I cried out my emotions.

Why would he leave? What made him leave? Is it because of guilt, for not protecting this town all the way? Or he doesn't want me anymore as his mate- a weak human that will only hinder him.

A hole was slowly forming in my heart and I embraced the numbness in my body, trying to get rid of the emotions that were slowly choking me. I didn't want to feel anymore, I just hated him.

I wanted him for leaving me.

I hated him for not even saying goodbye.

I hated him for hurting me.

And I hated myself for thinking that he'll be there in my life forever. 

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