Midnight Stalker (Completed)

Midnight 38 - Exhaust

Midnight (38)

The class was indeed notorious.

After I called each of their names for the attendance check, they started doing their own thing. Okay lang sana kung nagdadaldalan lang. Kaso their own thing seems illegal. Wala rin silang pakialam sa akin kung nakikita ko sila o hindi.

They just blatantly do it.

Parang akong tanga na nakatayo lang sa harap nila. Lahat sila ay may ginagawa na hindi ko naman sinabi. Tatlo lang ang nakatingin sa akin. One of them was Zarek. He still had his annoying grin. Parang amused siya sobra na nakikita niya ako ngayon sa harap niya. Tsh.

I closed my eyes for a few seconds and then breathed in and out.

Fuck, ang ingay.

Kalma, Yan.

I can do this.

"HF18!" sigaw ko. I tried to look as angry as possible - although I know that I'm not scary. Still, I was lucky I got most of their attention.

"Please get a yellow paper and introduce yourself to me in three hundred words," I said.

Halos mapatalon ako nang biglang kinalampag ng isang lalaki yung mesa niya. I tried to stay still but when he looked back at me, nakaramdam ako ng takot. Tulad ng math professor na nakasalubong ko kanina, halos mamula-mula rin ang mata nitong student na ito. Halatang... may ginagawang hindi dapat.

Not only that, there was this one boy in the class who started banging his head on his arm chair. Sobrang lakas ng pag-untog niya sa sarili niya na pakiramdam ko, baka magka-internal bleeding siya. 

Nalaglag ang panga ko.

Hindi ako makapaniwala sa mga nangyayari at sa mga nakikita. Ang lakas sobra ng kalabog ng dibdib ko sa sobrang kaba at takot.

I should stop the guy from doing that, pero hindi ko magawa. Ni hindi man lang ako makagalaw. I feel stuck. Trapped. Paralyzed.

Natatakot ako na baka manakit sila. For the first time, natatakot ako para sa sarili ko. What the hell have I gotten myself into? This is not a classroom! This is a war zone. This is literally hell!

One nerdy girl tried to calm the boy who's banging his head. Laking pasasalamat ko sa ginawa niya. Pero nung nakita ko na punong-puno na ng dugo yung ulo nung lalaki, sobrang kinilabutan ako. I-I'm responsible for that incident because I'm the teacher. Pero ano ang gagawin ko? Dalhin siya sa clinic? And then what?

Naglakad ako papunta sa kanya pero hinarang ang mukha ko ng isang yellow paper. I mentally cursed. Ang babastos!

I gritted my teeth. I counted one to ten to calm myself down. Kinuha ko ang yellow paper at nakitang wala ni isang nakasulat dun bukod sa pangalan ng may-ari, Daneliyah.

Gusto kong manlaban pero hindi ko magawa. Hindi pwede. Teacher nila ako. I should be a good example. I just accepted her paper and tried to contain my anger... and my tears. 

Truth is, sobrang frustrated na ako. Ni hindi pa yata ako nakaka-sampung minuto sa klase na 'to pero sinusumpa ko na sila. Oo at alam kong mas bata ako sa kanila, pero fuck, wala silang galang. Their attitude is sickening. I wasn't like this when I was in college.

"Boring!" sigaw naman ng isa sa mukha ko bago niya patapon na binigay sa akin yung papel niya. Not even his name was written on the paper. He even spat his saliva on me when I looked at him! 

I clenched my jaw to hopefully... still keep my calm.

I kept on walking. I was thinking of happy thoughts to help me distract myself from what's really happening.