Chapter Thirty Four | For My Brother
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Man I won't stop loving you ever
Do you understand, til your last breath
Til the last drop past death
Til forever end and that's never
Man I won't give up on your ever
Please just hear this
Sometimes you gotta walk through the darkness
To get to the light
Sometimes you gotta get through the wrong shit
To get to the right
No matter how hard life gets you still gotta fight - Jhene Aiko
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Two Months Later (August)
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Essence
I woke up this morning feeling way better than I did any other day. I wasn't grumpy and down, I felt good. Today was a very special day for me and what made it even more special was waking up to breakfast cooked by my two favorite boys. I couldn't help but to feel loved and appreciated as I was served with breakfast in bed on my special day.
"Happy birfday ma ma," Domani grinned as he came closer and kissed me on my cheek. My heart melted as I wrapped my arms around him and returned the kiss, with a little more motherly love added in too. You know it wouldn't be me if I wasn't extra.
"Thank you baby," I smiled and released him from my grasp. He went back to jumping around on the bed, like his usual silly and hyper self. I allowed him to do as he pleased as I focused my gaze on the father of my child, my husband, my bestfriend, my lover, my all wrapped into one handsome man.
"Happy birthday sexy, I love you." He smirked as he climbed into the bed next to me and planted a kiss onto the opposite cheek as Domani had done.
I frowned and looked at him like he was crazy. Today was my birthday and he was handing out bullshit ass "cheek" kisses. That wasn't going to do for me, not today. I leaned over to him and grabbed his chin, pulling his face closer to mine. I pressed my lips firmly against his in a real birthday.
"I love you too," I whispered in return as I pulled away from the kiss and looked around the room. There were balloons and gift bags all over the place. Damn, I must have been sleeping hard because this wasn't here when I went to bed and I didn't hear them moving around.
"Ma ma, da da, ew. Nasty!" Domani yelled as he pointed at me and Money after we pulled away from the kiss that we'd shared. I chuckled and starting putting the strawberry jam onto my toast, but he continued to jump up and down on the bed.
"Ew my ass, this my woman lil' nigga." Money said as he got up from the bed and snatched Domani up into his arms. He started to throw him up in the air playfully, while Domani only burst into fits of laughter. I smiled as I watched them interact, while stuffing my face with food. I loved me some breakfast food, it was a craving that I'd developed during this pregnancy.
I ate my food while watching them play around on the bed. I didn't bother to stop them or interfere, because I knew they would try to steal some on my food. I kept quiet as the both of them occupied each other while I ate. It was surprisingly very good too, seeing as Money can't cook for shit in his life.
After I was done eating my breakfast, I drunk my entire glass of orange juice and leaned back against the headboard. Money took the tray from my lap and the two of them headed out of the room. I sat back and rubbed my hand around my five month old belly. I was about to get up to get a peek at my gifts, but my little angel had other plans. I felt my food quickly making it's way back up my throat.
I hopped up from the bed with my hands covering my mouth as I ran into the bathroom as quickly as my pregnant ass could. Once I'd made it to the toilet, I allowed the vomit to erupt from my mouth and enter the toilet bowl. I held the sides of the seat as I threw up my entire birthday breakfast, while my eyes watered from the pain that I felt.
"Baby, it's my birthday. Please, please don't give momma a hard time today." I said, rubbing my mouth with one hand and my belly with the other. I was talking to my baby inside of my wound, hoping that he or she would listen and give me a break, but then again these were Money's rebellious ass kids.
After all of the contents had come up, I flushed it down toilet and stood up with the help from the counter. I felt dirty all of a sudden, so I stripped down butt booty naked and stood in front of the mirror. I turned the shower on warm and then reached for my tooth brush before getting a start on my routine.
"Damn, twenty four looks sexy as fuck on you." I looked through the mirror to see Money behind me, leaning up against the doorframe. He was standing there with his arms crossed over his chest and that signature smirk on his face, that he loved.
"Damn, a boner looks sexy as fuck on you," I retorted and smirked as my eyes travelled down his sweatpants until I caught eye of the bulging baby maker. His print was visible through the pants and it only made my hormones stir within me. We had a doctor's appointment at one and I knew there was no time.
Money took the time to look down at himself and he burst out laughing in amusement. By then I was done with my teeth, so I turned around to face him with a weird look on my face. Money was one of the most goofy dudes I ever met. I laughed to myself and shook my head, but it faded once I heard the sound of something fall.
"What the fuck was that?" Money whispered as he turned around quickly and went for his gun. I grabbed my robe and followed right behind him as we went to check on Domani. Money was supposed to be giving him a bath, but once we got into the bathroom, it looks like he was doing it all on his own.
"Uh oh!" Domani yelled as he looked over his shoulder at us with his hand covering his mouth. I gave Money the side eye, because this was his fault, but I couldn't even be mad as I started to chuckle along with Money at what Domani had done in the bathroom. It was a big mess, but the scene was amusing to me.
The tub had overflowed with water that had spilled onto the floor with bubbles everywhere. Domani stood on the closed toilet seat, trying to reach the towels and had made everything fall off of the shelf in the process, which explains the noise we'd heard. The funny thing about all this was, Domani's entire body was covered in bubbles and it made me chuckle in amusement.
"Good luck baby," I said as I patted Money's chest and turned around to go and get into my warm shower that had probably become cold by now, fooling around with Money.
I was leaving him to clean up his son's mess, since he was supposed to be the one bathing him in the first place. No, he was trying to be mannish with me and this whole thing happened, so now he had a nice job on his hands. I would be a good wife and help, but today is my birthday. That's my excuse for everything today.
I took me a fifteen minute shower and got out. I put on my matching, lace, black panties and bra set that Money had bought me from Victoria's secret. I used cocoa butter to lotion up my body to prevent stretch marks from forming on my skin. I didn't need any more marks on my body, the scars from the shooting was enough.
I went ahead and did my make-up and hair before putting on my clothes. In that time, Money had taken him a shower and walked into the room butt ass naked. Need I remind you, I'm pregnant and horny 25/8, so I couldn't help but to stare at what my man was working with. I oggled over his beefcake, I fucked around and forgot that we were on time schedule and I needed to get dressed.
"Damn, you stare any harder my dick might just disappear," Money said sarcasticall as he looked at me. I frowned and scrunched up my face, then gave him a finger with my nice manicured nails that were polished matte nude.
"Aint nobody staring at yo little ass dick anyway," I mumbled as I got up from the bed and grabbed my light denim boyfriend jeans that had rips at the knees and a cuff at the leg. Before I could make a move to put them off, Money came up behind me and bent me over the edge of the bed.
"What was that?" he asked as he pressed his bare tool into my treasure box, makimg me gasp. Even through these lace underwear, I could feel all of him and it only turned me on more.
I grabbed onto the covers and bit down omy bottom lip, trying to hold myself together.
"Oh my God Money," I whimpered as he rubbed himself up againsg my horny ass. He was torturing me and damn did it make my hormones rage. Only if you know what this man did to me, only if you knew.
"Nah, don't call God now. What the fuck you said?" he said agressively as moved my hair out of the way and he pressed his lips to the back of my neck and kissed me.
"I said you have the biggest dick in the whole wide world," I yelled, lying through my teeth because I had said the complete opposite of that. Of course I had lied when I said that he was little, because damn, he was far from it. My baby wasn't out here breaking women cervix and things, but he was big enough for you to be scardd and run from it.
"Yeah, that's what you betta' been said, ya lyin' ass." he said and smacked my bare ass. I winced and rubbed the spot with my hand before putting on my jeans with a slight frown on my face.
"You can't keep doing that?" I said in a low and sad tone as I pulled on my jeans and buttoned them under my growing belly. I was in my feelings just that quick, because of his ass. My hormones were soaring and now he wanted to jusr up and leave a bitch on H. Translation, horny ass hell!
"Keep doin' what?" he asked as he slipped into his boxer briefs and then into his True Religion jeans. We were all dressing alike today. We were wearing jeans, burgundy shirts, the boys were wearing jordans and I was wearing heels, little did Money know.
"That! You know how my hormones are Money, I'm horny." I whined as I pulled my shirt over my head and looked at him with my lip stuck out like a kid. I was 24 today, but right now I felt like a 6 year old kid being denied a play at the playground.
"You always horny," he said in amusement.
"And you're not?" I retorted and furrowed my eyebrows. This is the guy that eats, breaths, and sleeps sex, but when I get horny he wants to say it's all the time. Psh!
"Touche. Now get dressed, we gotta' be on time for this appointment." he said and we both finished getting dressed. I rolled my eyes as I went into our closet and slipped into my nude heels. I knew Money would trip, so I was taking my dark brown Michael Kors shoes along too, that matched my crossbody purse.
I finished getting ready and we all met downstairs in the foyer. Money grabbed his keys and the three of us were out of the door. I had copped an attitude, it's my damn birthday and I can't even get one thing I want. He's such and asshole. I rolled my eyes and got into the car before slamming the door back behind me.
"Aye, lose the funky ass attitude before I really give you some to have an attitude about." he said with a smirk and I continued to mumble under my breath as I looked out of the window. I know, I'm bipolar as shit but he loves me anyway.
I got the sudden urge to post a picture on Instagram, so I pulled out my phone and went to the camera. We were at a red light, so I sat up and smiled with my nude lip. Money held up his middle finger and Domani did the same from his car seat. I gasped as I turned around and mushed Money in his head.
"I know you taught him that," I frowned as I shook my head at Domani, who only chuckled from the back seat along with Money. I made him put his finger down, because that wasn't something a baby should do, not my kid. He was going to be a good boy, not a rebellious one like his father always was.
"Ian teach him shit, now stop hittin' me and turn yo' ass back around before you fuck around and fly out the front window. Then, we gone really have some problems." he said as he pulled off from the light slowly. I flipped him a finger and turned back around in my seat.
"And you wonder who he gets it from," he mumbled under his breath and I rolled my eyes before trying to take my picture once again. I held the camera and smiled as Money didn't bother to look, but Domani did with a huge grin. I took the picture anyway and posted it.
@SimplyEssenceJ_: When it's your birthday and your husband is an asshole, but your son makes up for it.♡
I sighed as I sat back down in the seat as we neared the doctor's office for my appointment. I'm a little 5 months at 22 weeks, but I had to keep rescheduling my appointment. Today was the day I could find out the gender and that put a smile on my face. I prayed she was a girl.
4 NEW COMMENTS.
@_itsNickiBaby: Screw him, it's your day baby. You look flawless and Domani looks happy. Happy Birthday boo! 24 and sexy.
@D_J: @_itsNickiBaby don't disrespect my brother on social media, easy way for me to get in that ass. otoh, Happy Birthday baby sis.
@r_itsNickiBaby: Ready when you are babe ;)
@QueenB_: Please hop off my homegirl @D_J, we don't play fair. Aint no one on one. Otoh, happy birthday to my baby momma. Her man being crazy, so that's my wife for today. I love you mama, see you later. ;)
I smiled and clicked off of instagram. All of them were crazy, but that was my family for you. Soon, we pulled up to the doctor's office and got out. I crossed my fingers and said a quick prayer before getting out of the car. I was hoping and praying for girl, but God would give me what he wanted me to have and I'd be happy with whatever angel I'm blessed with.
Money grabbed Domani's hand and wrapped his arm around my waist before we headed inside to find out the big news.
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"Damn wifey, that ass is getting fatter every time I see you." Bianca said as she poked at my butt with her pointer finger. I chuckled as I looked over my shoulder at my own butt. It really had grown with all of this extra baby weight I'd put on over the past couple months. According to Money, that was a good thing on his behalf.
"Y'all so damn gay bro, I aint know y'all was dykin'." Money said in a amusement as he stood near by with Adrian as they sipped from a cup that I knew was alcohol. I wasn't even pressed about it, I just wanted to enjoy my little party.
My family had all gotten together and rented out a place for my birthday party/ reveal party. Everything was blue and pink decor, including the huge cake that momma Nyla had made in honor of the gender reveal. Everyone was still eating their food and socializing, so we would reveal the gender pretty soon. I was super excited to find out.
"Well, now you do. Better watch out, before I bag yo' wife and have her callin' me daddy instead of you." Bianca winked at him as she wrapped her arms around my waist. I chuckled and wrapped my arms around her neck, just to play along with her.
"Nah, see that's where you went wrong. My wife like dick, my dick, and no amount of plastic, rubber, or scissoring can compare to my dick, feel me?" Money told her and I felt myself blushing as I covered my face at his words. He was so disgusting until it was sad. I was happy we were the only ones around or else, my cheeks really would have been on fire right now.
Bianca rolled her eyes and she let go of me and sat down, which only made Money's smirk grow. I shook my head as I stayed quiet in their whole little back and forth thing over me. I wasn't about to interfere with that. I was waiting to cut the cake so that I could eat me a piece on the low. Momma had got buttercream frosting and I loved it. I could already taste it.
"What you thinking bout?" Money whispered into my ear as he walked up behind me and placed his hands on either side of my stomach. I licked my lips as I snapped out of my thoughts.
"How bad I should have listened to you and wore flat shoes. My feet are killing me right now." I said and I scrunched my face up and he smirked like he wanted to say I told you so.
"Ian' gone even rub it in ya' face, go change like ya hardheaded ass should have done in the first place." he said as he handed me the keys and smacked my butt. I sighed as I headed outside to the car to get my other pair of shoes. These weren't cutting it.
I slid into back seat and slipped out of my heels and into my MK shoes. Once I was done, I got back out of the car and locked the doors back. There was some man walking down the street and he looked mad familiar. I didn't want to stick around because I could have been tripping, but when he called my name I knew exactly who it was and I met him half way.
"Marcus?" I asked once he got close enough into my view. I was in shock and disbelief as my brother came into view. I stopped a view feet away from him because he didn't even look the same anymore. He looked like a victim to drugs and it hurt my heart.
"H-happy birthday s-sis." he stuttered as he handed me a bunch of small flowers that had had picked up out of the dirt on the way over. His clothes were dirty, his shoes were torn, and his facial hair had grown out wild unlike how he usually kept it. I was stunned to see him like this.
"Oh my God, what happened to you Marcus?" I asked as I held my hand over my mouth in disbelief. The unbelievable had happened to my only brother and it looked bad. He looked bad, like a bum on the street. He didn't even look like the same person that I once knew.
"S-sis I'm sorry." he said as he sniffled and held his head down. He scratched at his arm and that's when I knew that not only was he snorting, but shooting up too and it hurt to see him this way. Marcus had a good head on his shoulders and I was almost positive it was all gone now.
"Just tell me what happened."
"I should've listened to you. Danielle played me. That bitch got me strung out on drugs and left me. She took all of my money and my car. My house got taken, I've been homeless Essence. I lost everything, my job, I lost you, everything. The baby wasn't even mine either. I loved that girl and she did me like that. I should have listened and I hope you forgive me. I have one favor, Essence please let me borrow twenty dollars. I really need it, I'm going through it. I need it E, please."
Marcus begged me for twenty dollars and it made me become emotional. My emotions were already unstable, but damn. He had made me break down as I stood in front of him with tears now streaming down my face at what he had become, a junkie. Only if he had listened to me, this would have been avoided.
"Why Marcus, why?" I cried.
"Essence, please." he pleaded as he scratched at his arms again. I closed my eyes and started to shake my head. I would not supply him, I wouldn't dare. My mom and dad had used these drugs before and one dose too many could be too much.
"No," I said firmly.
"What?" he asking in shock.
"No,"
"Come on Essence, just this once." he continued to pry, but I shook my head and got an idea. I couldn't leave my brother out like this. No matter what, he's my brother and I love him to death. He did me wrong, but I wouldn't turn my back on him when he needed me the most.
I grabbed his dirty hand and led him to Money's car. He stunk like he hadn't bathed in weeks, but I still put him in the car and got into the driver's seat. I started it up and headed off from the venue to get my only sibling the help he needed. I wouldn't sit around and watch him die, I was going to help him turn his life around.
"Where w-we going?" he asked as he looked around the outside scenery as we drove further and further down the road. I had the perfect place for him in mind, where he could get what he needed and get back onto his feet.
"Getting help," I said smiling weakly as I sniffled and wiped the tears while driving. The Rehab was only fifteen minutes away, but it felt longer as I drove from this side of town.
"No! I need a fix." Marcus screamed as he banged at the dash board causing me to jump and become afraid. I jumped, but kept driving without saying anything else until we had made it to the facility and I'd parked. We sat in the car and I turned towards him.
"Marcus, I'm getting you help. Please, do it for me. It's my birthday and I want to see you doing good, not like this. I need you Marcus, please, please get help. I'm getting you help." I said as I pleaded with him and prayed that he would agree to go through with the whole thing.
"I'm sorry Essence, I don't want to lose you. You're the only sibling I have and I love you. I'm sorry. I'll do it," he said as he wiped tears of his own away from his eyes. I smiled weakly at those words and got out of the car and dragged him inside.
We sat around and talked with the workers until we came to an agreement of a 6 month program that would do him the best. I payed the first installment of his plan and set everything up for him. I felt good to be doing this, to be helping my brother.
All of this shit he's done to me as put much pain in my heart, but I can't turn my back on him. He chose Danielle over me, but that still didn't make me leave him hanging. He was my brother and I loved him forever and that never ends. I was doing this for my brother.
"I love you Marcus," I said as I hugged him, despite how bad he smelled right now. I was glad that he allowed me to help him. As mad and dirty I should be towards Marcus, I couldn't dare. No matter what he has done to me, I can only do the right thing and get my blessimg in return.
"I love you too sis. T-thanks so much for doing this for me. Happy birthday again. Take care of those kids," he smiled as he let go and sat down onto his bed in his new home. I wiped away the tears as I waved and headed back home to my family with one of the greatest feelings of all. It was my birthday, but the best present was being able to help my brother. This birthday was for my brother.
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Money
I paced up and down the sidewalk outside of the building with my hands on my head. I was fuming and worried all at the same time. I didn't know what to think or expect at Essence's dissapearance, but I was hot and worried as I paced to keep myself from blowing a fuse. I hadn't had a problem with my anger in a long time, but it was about to come back out again.
After another minute, my car pulled back up to the place and parked. A breath of relief escaped the back of my throat as she stepped out of the car, but my anger grew too as I rushed over to where she was. I pulled her into my chest and kissed her forehead before I blew up.
"Essence I swear to God you do some shit like that again, ima' kill you my damn self! What the fuck were you thinkin', huh? Not tellin' me where you was goin'. You had me worried sick about yo ass for nothing." I ranted at her as she stood in front of me. I stopped when I noticed dried tears already present, but more were about to start coming.
"I'm sorry," she mumbled as her bottom lip trembled and she got ready to let out the water works. I sighed and pulled her into my hug again and just held her as we stood here.
"Baby, I'm sorry for screaming at you, but you cant just dissapear without me knowin' where you at. Shit gettin' hot and I need to know where you and my kid located at all times, aight?" I said and she nodded her head. I wiped the tears from her eyes and kissed her forehead.
"Where were you anyway?" I asked curiously.
"Helping Marcus, Danielle got him strung out on drungs, took his money, car, and left him. I had to get him some help Money, I couldn't just leave him to die. He needed me." she said and I nodded my head as I lead her back to the car. I didn't even want to be here nomore, I was taking my wife home.
"That's good E, just because he did you dirty don't mean you got to do him like that. I know that's crazy coming from me, but it's true." I said as I got into the car and started it up. She nodded her head and rested it onto the door as we headed home. It was stank as fuck in here, but I didn't even both to ask why.
On the way home, I stopped by the store because Essence ass wanted some Chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, hot cheetos, and pickles. That shit was nasty as fuck, but she wanted it, so I got it for her. It was a quick run in and run out, so it didn't take but three minutes tops before I was back inside of the car.
"Money?" she called as she looked out of the window at nothing. I put the bags in the backseat and drove away from the gas station, getting back onto the road towards the house.
"Wassup?" I asked lazily with one hand on the steering wheel.
"Why is Danielle texting you about her being back and town and that you can meet up with her next week for lunch?" she asked and looked at me. I swallowed the lump in my throat because I knew this was about to be some shit that wasn't shit. It had slipped my mind to tell her about that, but damn, here it was now.
(850)613-6709: Hey Money ;), I'm finally back in town and decided to text you. We can meet up for lunch next Friday at the downtown cafe to catch up, it's on me. See you then.
--- Love Danielle ♥
"It's not what you think ..."
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Hope you enjoyed.
Excuse the many errors.
1. Do you think Essence did the right thing by helping Marcus or should she have done him like he had done her?
2. What do you think about that message? Grimy? Geniune?
3. Girk character name suggestions. (Not for this book). The names came be random, I want something unique, not the cliche, basic names you see in every Wattpad story. tehe.
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