Brave - FanFic CHIM/CHERYL COLE

Part 200

A/N: Part 200!? I either have no life OR I have no life. I want to thank all my viewers that have been with me through all these crazy chapters x

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Julie's POV

I was laid out starfish style on my bed - my thoughts drifting to another memory. A time I wanted to forget, but couldn't get myself to let it go.

"You think your Mum loved you!? She's worse than me!" Kristina shouted at me, I was sobbing on the bathroom floor she was hovering over me - shouting abuse

"Nobody will ever love you!" She hissed, lowering herself down and grabbing a fist full of my hair - forcing me to meet her eyes

"Nobody will ever love you" She repeated, her teeth gritting together - fists tightening around my hair

"Say it!" She spat

"N-No bod-dy will ever l-love me" I cried, my neck was pulled back - her tightly clasped hand yanking my head aggressively launching me against the bathroom tub

"Now-" She stood up, dusting herself off

"Do what you're here to do. Clean up this fcking bathroom and I want it fcking spotless!" She gave me a kick to my shins and spat at me before walking herself out of the bathroom

My tears were running down the sides of my eyes - she was turning into them. It was now late, she still hadn't called me for dinner - I was scared to go down. Maybe she would turn her verbal abuse into physical abuse

My stomach was rumbling with hunger, I took a deep breath and pushed myself to go down. It was midnight, the house was silent - baby Isabella's cries had died down long ago and she was fast asleep and I was hoping my parents were as well. I felt like a criminal in the night, sneaking down to the kitchen and eating resembling a criminal. I was shaking, you would think this wasn't my house and those weren't my parents upstairs.

"What are you doing!?" Mam shouted, I jumped in my spot - dropping the sandwich out of my hand; landing it straight to the ground

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"What are you doing!?" Rebecca shouted, I know I messed up - I shouldn't be down here, but I couldn't take the aching pain caused from my hunger

"I-I w-was hungry" I stammered, my hands hiding the piece of bread behind my back - tears threatening to spill

"What did I tell you about eating out food!?" She snapped, charging over to me hitting me straight into my gut - I fell straight to the ground; revealing the hidden toast in hand

"Get up!" She didn't give me a chance to stand to my feet - grabbing my by the hair and dragging my out of the front door

"You're staying out here tonight!" I shivered, already feeling the frostbite descending its way to me

"I-It's winter" My teeth clattered, my arms wrapping themselves around each other in hope for some sort of warmth - I was dressing in a vest top bot giving me much shielding from the strong winds of the winter night

"That'll teach you!" She slammed the door shut, leaving me lied in the winter snow

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"I w-was hungry" I cried, I didn't want history to repeat itself, I wasn't ready to stay out all night and waking up with blue lips and a numbing body - I couldn't go through that again

"Didn't I tell you I'd call you!?' She charged over to me, and I knew it was coming - I quickly shielded myself, one arm on my stomach the other protecting my face

"Please! I'm sorry! I didn't mean it!" I sobbed, when I didn't feel the blow come, I lowered my arms apprehensively - she was picking up my sandwich on the floor and tossing it into the bin

"I hate you" I heard myself say, she turned around with furrowed eyebrows

"What did you say?" She clenched her jaw, her eyes piercing into my soul

"If you are going to fcking back talk SPEAK UP!" She shouted, I don't know what came over me; I don't know what possessed me to do this - but I was charging and I was lunging myself at her; my fists pounding against her chest

"I HATE YOU! I FCKING HATE YOU!" I cried, hitting her with each word escaping my mouth

"That's it! GET ANGRY! Hit me Julie! Fcking hit me!!" She shouted, taking my wrists between her hands and shaking me - shaking me back to reality

"HIT ME!" She shouted again, I fell to the ground - her hands still wrapped around my wrists; taking her down with me. She took me into her arms; my head supported between her hands - she began to kiss my face urgently. Her lips were landing anywhere they could, both of us in tears

"I love you" She cried, lingering her lips against my cheeks - I was in hysterics; laying helplessly in her arms as she continued to kiss me with so much emotion

"I love you bubba, I swear I didn't meant it! I swear I love you" She continued, we were curled up against the tiled flooring - the only sound to be heard was Mam's 'I love you's' and my sobbing. Her kisses didn't stop, and her hold grew tighter with each word she spoke

"I'm sorry! I love you baby! I promise you I do" She pressed her head against my forehead - willing me to meet her eyes

"I hate you" I whispered through my tears, my eyes growing tired from the sudden emotions I had just let unleash my body

"I hate you" I repeated, hiccupping in my her arms. The adrenaline had subsided and I was weak and almost lifeless laying in her arms. Her cried had become louder and her tears were cascading down her cheeks - she didn't even bother wiping them away

"I hate you" I crumpled onto the ground, curling up into a ball - protecting myself from anything around me

"I hate you" I couldn't find myself to say anything else, she lowered herself down to me - her body wrapping itself around the tight shell I had created. We lay against the cold floors, our cries not ending anytime soon. The memories, had turned into reality.