Brave - FanFic CHIM/CHERYL COLE

Part 186

Julie's POV

I found myself at school the next morning, I don't even remember getting up and driving myself here. But here I am - once again. Today just felt weird, something about the air was different. Just something. I had yet to speak to Libby, and I wasn't in the mood to see her this morning either.

I walk through the school halls and I can feel everyone's eyes on me, a sad expression playing on their faces. 'What is going on today?' I ignored them and walked myself to my first class to be met by Libby looking ready to fall over and die

"Julie!" She ran over to me - looking close to tears

"What's the matter?" I asked her - suddenly afraid something had happened to her, or her family

"Y-Your Mam Julie" She cried, not being able to finish her words

"My Mam what Libby!? What?" I shook her, it wasn't the time to breakdown - I needed to know what had happened to Mam

"She's in the hospital-" Before she could finish her sentence I was already out of the class, running through the halls - pushing anyone that was in my way. 'She's in the hospital' repeating in my head - if something were to happen to Mam, I would never be the same.

I could feel my heartbeat, I could hear it. Sirens going off in my head as I sped down the motorway, I needed to get to my Mam. I needed to see for myself, I didn't give Libby a chance to explain. I was pressing down on the accelerator as far as it could go - but I wasn't going fast enough, memories flush my mind of the last time we were in the hospital.

Remembering my breakdown, I could feel myself returning to that state - my hands were shaking, I clenched them down around the leather steering wheel; needing to keep my emotions together. I needed to know she was okay.

"Please be okay" I was crying, my tears blurring my line of vision - I quickly wiped them with the back of my hand. Before j knew it I was at the A&E, leaving my car stranded in the middle of the parking lot - still turned on with the keys in the ignition. I didn't care, all I cared about was Mam

"C-Cheryl! Cheryl Tweedy-Walsh?!" I cried to the receptionist - she quickly told me where to go. My legs working on their own as I ran down the white corridors - finding Mum sat crying her heart out on the bench available

"Mum!" I ran to her, instantly taking her into my arms; both of us breaking down - something wasn't right. I felt as if I couldn't breathe.

"Mum what happened?" I said through my tears

"S-She's had a car accident" She sobbed - I couldn't speak anymore. All I could do was cry and pray. I prayed she'd be okay - my prayers were once answered, and I hoped they'd be answered once again. The walls seemed to be louder, they were speaking back to me - yelling at me. Telling me Mam wasn't going to be okay, that she wasn't going to be with me anymore. I believed them, somewhere deep down in me knew something horrible was going to happen

"Shut up! Shut up!" I crumbled down to the ground - curling up into a ball and crying my heart out. I could feel it physically breaking. My throat was closing up, my ears were going numb from my thoughts. Foot steps, I can hear foot steps - they were slower than usually, they weren't rushed. I looked up to be met by a man in white. He cleared his throat - his expression said it all

"NO!" I screamed, shaking my head - his face fell; I didn't want to hear it

"I'm sorry-" He began, I found myself lunging myself at him - beating my fists against his chest

"YOU FCKING BASTARD! YOU F-FCKING BASTARD!" I was in hysterics - he had to hold me down; I was never going to be the same.

"She wasn't going to make it! She lost too much blood!" He shouted at me, I laid there - staring at the ceiling; my tears running down freely. I had lost it; my body had given up