Brave - FanFic CHIM/CHERYL COLE

Part 31

Julie's POV

"Want to come down?" I asked Libby as I gathered my shopping bags

"No I have to go, my grandparents will probably want me home" she said

"Okay I'll see you soon" I smiled shutting the car door and opening the front door. I went up to my room straight away and dumped the bags on my bed before retreating to the front room

"Hey" I said going over and hugging Kim and Cheryl

"Did you have a good time?" Cheryl asked as she ate a spoonful of ice cream

"Yeah it was fun" I said simply putting my focus on the telly. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I kept telling myself but as much as I tried to convince myself I still cared. I wonder who he was? what he was doing right now? but he didn't want me so why should I care? I let out an unintended sigh out loud

"You okay?" Kim asked

"Yeah I'm fine. what have you guys been up to?" I asked trying to get the topic off me

"I just got home about an hour ago......" Kim continued to talk but I zoned her out.

"Are you even listening to me" Kim asked I noticed I was just staring into space

"Y-yeah... Oh I was wondering would you guys be able to take me tomorrow?" I asked reminding them about visiting my foster parents

"Yeah We'll go tomorrow morning if you want" Kim said

"Okay I'm just going to take a shower" I said getting up and hurrying to my bedroom

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Kim's POV

"What has gotten into her?" I asked Cheryl

"She's probably still a little worked up from her nightmare" Cheryl said

"Yeah probably" I replied putting my head on her shoulder and watching some telly for the rest of the night

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Julie's POV

I didn't have any nightmares that night. I think it was the fact I was going to go visit my foster parents the next day. I woke up peacefully, the sun was up surprisingly and I knew today was going to end well.

"Morning" I said walking through the kitchen to be met by Cheryl and Kim having their tea and chatting away. You would think they'd run out of stuff to talk about, but give these two to prove you wrong

"Morning munchkin I made you some pancakes" mum said I nodded and went over and platted some up and drenched them in syrup. I went over and sat beside mum receiving a kiss on the cheek

"We're going to take you in about an hour" Cheryl informed me

"I don't want you guys to think I don't love you because I want to visit my foster parents" I told them

"No we understand babe" Kim said rubbing my back and Cheryl nodded understandingly. I had my breakfast and went up and got changed into black trousers and a black blouse. I tied my hair into a neat ponytail, slipping on a pair of black flats. I place a pair of black glasses over my eyes and went downstairs

"You ready?" Kim asked and I nodded heading out to the car. I sat in the back thinking about what I would say to them when I see their graves. They are probably upset with me for not visiting.. it's been awhile. 3 years. 3 years too long.

"We're here" Kim and Cheryl were about to get out but I stopped them

"C-can I go down by myself?" I said and they nodded. I went down and bought two bouquets of white roses from the little stand they had. Knowing my foster mum Amanda loved her white roses.. I walked up to their grave and set the flowers down beside each grave.

"Hey mum, hey dad" I sniffed already getting emotional

"You guys must be so upset with me. Dad you'd be saying 'Julie I raised you better' I have an excuse, really. You guys already probably know.. I know you guys are watching down on me. I know this because I met a boy dad, his name is jake.. you want to know something? he has the same qualities as you. He's caring, and he gives me his full attention. Mum you'd love him, you're probably teasing me right now 'My little Julie is all grown up'..." I began to cry not being able to finish

"I-I miss you guys so much" I said taking off my glasses and placing them on the grass next to me where I have been sitting

"I need you guys! things are good but I still need you guys. Kimberley and Cheryl are amazing to me, Cheryl's my actual mam.. I found her mum. Remember how we talked that one night and I told you she's probably out there looking for me.. she wasn't but I think you guided me to her that night. It was you telling me to get up and leave that house when he he he raped me" I sobbed

"I love you mum.. Dad I need you to come back and knock some sense into me! I need you to tell me that I have to stop thinking about who my biological dad is because he never wanted me. You guys wanted me! why did god have to take you guys away from me" I cried out hysterically clutching onto their grave stones

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Cheryl's POV

I looked out the window and saw Julie crying out hysterically clutching onto the grave stone of her foster parents

"Kimba I think we should go down" I said

"Come on" she said stepping out of the car. I speed walked to Julie

"I need you guys to come back" I heard Julie crying

"Why did god take you guys away from me" she continued

Julie's POV

"Julie?" I heard mam call me. I didn't reply I just wiped my terry eyes and pulled my glasses over my face and kissed both grave stones and whispered 'I'll be back soon. I promise' and I walked back to the car and sat in the back seat emotionless

"Ju-" Kim started but I cut her off

"I don't want to talk about it" I said coldly staring out of the car. Looking at the grave stones. The car began to move, I kept staring at the grave sight until I couldn't see it. Out if sight. Out if mind. My heart was broken.