Brave - FanFic CHIM/CHERYL COLE

Part 106

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Julie's POV

"Come on, up you get!" I hear Mam's voice and my eyes instantly shot open

"Mam!" I yelped pulling her down onto the bed hugging her tightly

"I'm sorry" I said tearfully; these couple of days have been very emotional for me, for us.

"I don't really want to leave, I don't know why I said that yesterday" I cried into the crook of her neck as she lay on me holding me close kissing my temple every so often telling me how much she loves and cares for me

"I would have been a mess if you left us" she said her voice getting thick with unwashed tears

"I'm sorry Mam" I sniffed hugging her tightly, we stayed in that embrace for what seemed like minutes, hours, and days. It was nice to just be laying there in each other's arms holding each other, just being there for each other. In the heat of an argument everyone says things they don't mean, actions are done unintentionally. You lose yourself in the argument allowing the anger to over power your subconscious mind.

"Is there room for one more?" I heard Mum's voice echo through the bedroom, I held out my hand and she instantly took it. We all laid together in a ball of love, holding each other; braided together in a beautiful embrace.

"Tell us what happened?" Mam said, the atmosphere was more calm now; I felt as if I was able to speak my mind and not be afraid of them lashing out and screaming at me.

"It really was only supposed to be a few people, I had invited some of the girls on my soccer team for a little pool party then next thing I knew people were crashing it and I couldn't control it" I began

"I guess I got too into the party, a-and I-I did smoke.." I trailed off making my parents sigh

"You promised us Julie" Mam said sadly

"I know, and I'm sorry Mam" I said turning around so I could have a better look at her. Mum instantly spooned me from behind resting her chin in the crook of my neck wrapping her arms around my slim waist

"It just all happened so fast, and those drugs weren't mine I swear! Some kid named Kevin at the party handed them to me and told me to hang onto them for him.. I don't know what I was thinking. Obviously I wasn't, I had consumed so much alcohol I barely knew what I was doing anymore" I said tearfully

"I got into a fight with Libby because she told me that this was enough, and I needed to kick everyone out.. I yelled at her and told her she was boring. She got upset and left the party" I sniffed as Mam wiped my tears away looking at me with sad eyes

"Next thing I knew there were cops everywhere arresting people.. I called Libby when I was there, she came the next day with Jason.. He was being so rough with me and-"

"What do you mean he was being rough with you?" Mum asked turning me around to look at her

"He was grabbing my arm forcefully dragging me which ever way he wanted.. And then when we got into the car he started screaming at me and slammed me against the car window after I had told him Libby and I were together.. He went and said... Said.." I couldn't get myself to say it, I don't know who would ever think its okay to speak about someone in that way. Gay, lesbian, bi, trans.. What ever they chose to be; I don't know how someone could speak about others with so much disgust and hatred in their tone of voice and choice of words

"He said what angel?" Mum encouraged me sweetly and gently. I always loved that about her, she always made me feel safe; no matter what it was, or where I was- her words always put me at ease.