Brave - FanFic CHIM/CHERYL COLE

Part 65

Julie's POV

"Hey... You okay?" Libby asked circling patterns around my navel

"I don't think I'll ever be okay after that.. so that's what a real orgasm feels like?" I asked with my hand over my chest still trying to catch my breath

"Why what kind of orgasms have you been getting?" she raised her eyebrow making me giggle and go all shy

"Stop you're embarrassing me" I said covering my red face

"You and Jake totally had sex!" she gasped, she lowered my hands off my face slowly

"You and Jake and sex?" she asked again and I just nodded biting my lower lip

"How could you not tell me that?" she said getting upset

"It was private Libby" I explained

"I thought we were closer than that" she said getting up and looking for her discarded clothes putting them on

"What're you doing?" I said getting off the bed

"I'm upset with you Julie" she said honestly

"How could you not tell me?" she said with teary eyes

"Babe what was I supposed to tell you? 'Hey Lib Jake and I had sex last night...' it's not something I go around sharing" I said putting some clothes on feeling exposed suddenly

"You're not understanding where I'm coming from" she sighed

"So explain to me then, help me understand" I said taking her hands in mine and walking over to the sofa

"We're supposed to tell each other everything" she said looking down at our entwined fingers

"You've never had sex before?" I asked her and she looked at me nervously

"I erm.." She wouldn't look at me

"Olivia what's going on?" I asked her taking her face in my hands so she could meet my eyes

"I was raped" she whispered letting her tears spill. I took her into my arms holding her close as she cried into me

"Shhh baby, it's okay.. I get it. I've been there" I kissed her forehead trying to calm her down. I laid back on the sofa taking her down with me letting her rest over me with her head on my chest

"I was with him for 2 years and he couldn't wait any longer" she mumbled against my chest. I stayed quiet letting her speak and say her story

"I told him I wasn't ready.. not just yet. It was 2 years ago I was only 14 you could only imagine at that age, you don't really think about that stuff.. he was three years older than me, so that's all he was thinking about. One night he f-forced me he pulled me into his bedroom and took my virginity, it was awful, forced, and left me with a lot of bruising and blood" she hiccuped

"He broke up with me that night and threw me out of his house" she cried clenching her fists around my t-shirt afraid Id leave her

"Libby?" I said minutes later after she calmed down

"Mm" she groaned

"You know I would never do that to you.. right?" I said needing her to know

"You're safe with me, forever. I will never hurt you, I will never mistreat you, I'm not saying we will never fight because there is no healthy relationship that doesn't involve arguments. But I would never force myself onto you, and I sure as hell won't kick you out of my house, I don't think you know how special you are to me. You are my world, and I can't see my days with out you in them. Some might find it really stupid how I feel because we are still young and there's still so much ahead of us that we don't know about, but there is one thing I know about and that is my love for you" I finished taking in a deep breath as she sat up looking at me with a sad expression on her face, her eyes still bloodshot red from all the crying she had been doing moments ago

"I don't think you realize how you just made me feel" she sniffed letting a tear escape her beautiful eyes

"You're my world too Julie, you're my everything and it's all because of you that I have become this opened book.. and no one gets to read these chapters but you. I don't give a damn what people think, all I care is what you think of me.. I can't see my future with out you in it. Please tell me we are going to be together forever?"

"I will forever be telling you that you're mine, no one will ever have you. We're stitched together forever" I said pulling her down and kissing we softly on her trembling lips

"I love you" I said looking her in the eyes and wiping her beautiful diamond tears away

"I love you more" she rested her forehead on mine looking at me with so much love