Deal With Chaos #ProjectNigeria

Chapter 39

Vanessa was tired of being ignored.

Tired of being sidelined.

Tired of being forgotten.

Unfortunately it's like the world wasn't tired of doing those things to her.

She looked up and studied Tomisin's face carefully.

He looked up just in time for her to look away.

"Ness how are you?" He gently asked.

Nessa shrugged, "just there oh, I'm just happy I'm no longer in boarding school."
Tomi looked surprised, "really?"

Nessa nodded, "yeah starting next term I'm now a day student."

Tomi grinned, "that's great."
Nessa fell silent and clutched her bottle of coke not bothering to drink it.
She felt really stupid , here she sat looking very pretty in her pale pink off shoulder crop top and very ripped jeans with make up on.

Heck she even did a new long weave.

All this for the man she did it for to include some other person.

Today was supposed to be special, not some friendly group meeting.

"You look very pretty though." Tomi added.

Once upon a time Nessa would have been so happy to hear him say that.
Now she couldn't be bothered.

Nessa never knew she could feel this way, never expected herself to fall and fall so quickly.
Yet here she sat, hopelessly falling.

She stared at her fingers and felt so weak.
Weak.
Awkward.
Boring.
Not good enough.

What made her think she could get a whole Sam to like her.
"Ness." Tomi's gentle voice caught her attention.

"Yeah?" She replied.

"Ness I'm sorry, it took so long but really I'm so sorry for not being a good enough friend." Tomi said touching her arm.

Nessa shrugged, "it's fine."
Tomi looked relieved, then Nessa continued, "I mean you only became my friend to get close to Kayla right? Mission accomplished."

Tomi looked appalled, "Ness that's not it and you know that."

Nessa didn't say anything.

Tomisin reached and held her hand, "Hey, you are very important to me, and I'm sorry it hasn't seemed like that lately but I became your friend because you are fun, amazing and you're my right hand girl, don't forget that."

Nessa couldn't lie, her heart felt lighter at his statement.
Nessa eyed him then sniffed, "fine, but why did it take you so long?"

"I'm so sorry, I've been preoccupied with so many things."

"Like Kay." Nessa muttered.

Tomi sighed, "and my exams, contrary to popular opinion, I have other things on my mind."

Nessa rolled her eyes, "yeah just go on believing that, what's the harm in a little self deceit."

Tomi pulled her cheek, "you think you have mouth now ehn, I'm still your senior."

Nessa couldn't help it, she smiled, "oh fuck off."

For a few minutes silence ensued.

"So." Tomi started.

Nessa looked at him waiting for him to continue.
He played with the cover of his bottle, "how's you and Sam?" Tomi finally asked.