Songs for this chapter are;
Bille Eilish idontwannabeyouanymore.
Jorja Smith Let me down feat Stormzy.
Billie Eilish Lovely feat Khalid.The problem with me.
Is I love too hard
I hurt too much
I lie too many
I don't cry enough
I cry too muchI can't let go
I want nothing
I want everything
I put him first
I put God lastI climb a steep mountain that has no peak
I run away from my salvation
I lose myself in confusion
I think I know what I'm doing.I'm not depressed
I'm not happy
I cling to people
So I can still have himI wished to be good
I needed to be bad
I'm a master of myself
I'm the servant to myselfI'm too proud
My anger is a demon
I'm unrecognizable
I'm unlovable
Yet he tries to love meI'll hurt him
I can feel itThe problem with me is me
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I didn't have much hope for the upcoming exams, I knew that if I came out in flying colors that would be a miracle.
My mum was right.
Boyfriends were a hassle.
I was supposed to be focused on the biology exam I had tomorrow but I couldn't even focus on my note.
All my thoughts were focused on Tomi.
I looked out the window and noticed my reflection on the glass.
Her eyes looked tired, wary and scared.
Her face was worried.
Her mouth was upside down.
I hated her.
I really hated her."Kayla?"
I looked to my side to answer whoever was calling me, who I did not expect to see was Juwon.
I raised my eyebrow at him, "hi?" I said a bit confused.
I was presently in my class, with a few people around cause most had gone to the library and I thought I'd get to enjoy a peaceful class.
I guess not.
Juwon looked shy unable to meet my eyes.
"Can we talk?" He asked pushing his hands deep into his pockets and meeting my gaze.
I blinked but nodded, "sure."
He sat down in front of me, "how have exams been?" He asked.
I shrugged, "just there really."
He let out a small chuckle, "you'll probably do well anyway, I mean you're smart and..."
"Juwon." I said gently interrupting him, "What do you want?"
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Deal With Chaos #ProjectNigeria
Teen FictionKayla Williams loves quiet, loves being unnoticed, loves reading books and hates Tomisin Adekunle. But when her best friend Nessa becomes quite close to him and she has to deal with him on a daily basis,she realizes that she just has to deal with i...