Diary Entry - Eundeok Married Life (Baekhera) [COMPLETED]

Eun's urge

Eun's diary

I did it! I did it! Me! Wangeun! I did it! I helped Soondeok and she can now ride!!!!! I felt so happy after what happened yesterday. The sunset was a good ending, we watched it together. Come to think of it, we've watched both the sunrise and sunset together already – the feeling this time is different. Ever since I told Soondeok I'll take care of her like a brother, I started being myself around her – no more pretense, no more lie, just me, my old self. I can be myself when I'm with her, I like that.

We'll be moving back tomorrow, I'm going to miss my nephews real bad. They're all excited about the baby that will arrive soon, all wanting it to be a baby brother – but their parents want it to be a girl. I haven't thought about it, how many children I want, how many boys and girls I want. After playing with my nephews, I'd say boys are not so bad. But really, who are we to decide? It's not like we can decide whether to have a boy or a girl just like that. No, they're given by heaven – gifts. I'll accept whatever gift the heaven will bless me with.

This morning when I woke up, I discovered Soondeok had her hand on my chest – I was so shocked, I jumped up. Thankfully, that didn't wake her up. Her pajama top was loose and I couldn't help but took a peek inside. Too bad, I didn't see anything. I've got to say, she's got a hot body though, I discovered as we were riding yesterday. Oh gosh! What's wrong with me? I need to kick these thoughts out! Yikes! I can't do that to my sister! My innocent Soondeok...I must hold it in. I need to hold in. Eun ah, wake up you! Half of me wants to protect my wife as a brother, yet half of me wants to sleep with her as a man. Oh my gosh! Someone help me!

Soondeok's diary

I can ride now!!! Thanks to the prince, I've overcome my trauma and I can gallop like before! Oh, if only it didn't rain today! I'd ride till nightfall! Oh well, I guess I'll start packing things up for the move tomorrow. Yes, we're moving back tomorrow – finally! I'll miss my family though, especially my nephews. Bogum left yesterday without even saying goodbye, I sure will miss him. It'll be another year till we see him again. How mean of him...to leave without saying bye to me. Not even a letter or a note! Did he get mad at me for making him tell me about his first love? I sure hope not! I was just trying to help...will he be alright?

Eun couldn't bring himself to look at me in the eyes this morning, I wonder what happened. Was it because of the kiss yesterday? Does he get triggered easily? Like the time when he kissed my neck, it took him ages to get over it. Should I kiss him more often for him to get used to it? He said something odd yesterday, telling me to kiss him whenever I want. 

Funny, right? He would push me away when I go near him before, now he hugs me all the time. He would yell at me when I try to say something to him before, now he says all these good things to me that made me have goosebumps. I mean, seriously! Who wouldn't get goosebumps after hearing a guy calling you "little dove", "pumpkin", "honey", "darling"? And his aegyo! Wa, really scary. I wonder how his mother survived all of them. I can't stand it, I really can't. Yet he told me not to look at him as a kid! How can I not? Ask anyone on the street and they'll say Eun is still a kid himself! But still, he's my man – my handsome, cute, aegyo-king husband. Oh dear, did I blush again?