F.E.A.R (The Mafia Queen)

SEASON 2: F.E.A.R 5 (Special Chapter)

So, dahil espesyal ang kabanatang ito nais kong bigyan ng point of view si FEAR, hihihi! Bonus na sa inyo mehehe!

Ps. Medyo nakakainis at masakit ang chapter na ito para sa mga loyal kay Chaleb Onnyx Lee Dritton </3

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F.E.A.R's PoV (Special Chapter)

After a couple of minutes of staring at Unique, I seated carefully as I tried not to disturb this sleeping beast beside me. Where did he put my clothes? I asked myself trying to widen my eyes to find my clothes in darkness.

Ah, never mind! I jumped out in bed and walk towards the huge glass window. Doesn't matter if I'm naked. No one will see. Oh, too bad for Unique, he's in deep sleep. I smirk.

After seconds...

Its cold. I can't take it. Mabilis akong kumuha ng isang malaking t-shirt sa walk in closet ni Unique. I also grabbed the glass of wine sa mesa saka bumalik muli sa tapat ng bintana.

Arkazea at night is so relaxing. This huge glass window in front of me is really a big help. I can see the whole city. Wow. Just wow.

Tick tock!

Are you guys waiting for me to talk about the past? No. I won't talk about it. No. Psh. Okay, okay. Fine. Tinungga ko ang isang baso ng alak bago ko umpisahan ang kadramahan ng buhay ko. I need this. Kailangan ko ng lakas ng loob upang mag kwento.

I did a heavy sigh. I crossed my arms and stare at the beautiful view of the whole city of Arkazea.

I never imagined this. All of this. Where I am now. Who I am with. Everything.

Five years ago, I met a guy named, Chaleb Onnyx Lee Dritton. The guy, I unexpectedly fell in love with. The guy, that not even in my dreams will taught me how to love. The guy, who leaves a deep mark in me...in my heart.

Everything is perfect between us. I experienced out of the world things like collywobbles in my stomach, the kilig *chuckles*, happiness, forgiveness...love...

But, in every happy moments there will always be sadness. Pain. Heartaches. Life still hates me and really wanted to put me down. Of course, I am FEAR, I didn't let myself just go with the flow. I fought. Lumaban ako.

And I guess, what I did in the past still wasn't enough to stay on top. I defeated by my own fate. Ullysses, just got what he wants. Kasi hanggang ngayon, nag durusa pa rin ako...for my loss.

Hindi ang bala ng taong iyon na nagmula sa kanyang baril ang pumatay sa akin kung hindi ang sama ng loob at sakit sa puso. I begged for my life. That time, I wasn't yet ready to leave the world...my love, Onnyx.

That someone never listened. Kinalabit pa rin niya ang gatilyo at nag tagumpay siyang burahin ako sa mundong kinabibilangan nila. Ang sakit. Hindi ko man lang siya nakita bago ako nawala.

I wipe my tears away.

*FEAR touch her necklace with a ring as its pendant*

*Onnyx's proposal ring.

I live in constant fear. Not for myself but for him. It will always be him. I want him to be safe but I can't move. Wala akong ibang magawa kung hindi ang bumulong sa hangin na iligtas siya sa mga panganib.

For the past five years, wala akong narinig na anuman tungkol sa kanila. Walang komunikasyon, wala lahat. Limitado ang mga bagay na nalalaman ko tungkol sa mga buhay nila as I teach myself to distance and intentionally forget them.