4:20 // 𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐈𝐓𝐘 𝐗 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑

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Today's song: IDK You Yet

yeah hey quick warning there will be mention of the big sad if you get triggered easily with mildly depressed thought don't read you won't miss out on much. Take care dm's are always open to talk

How can you miss someone you've never met?

Lola left this morning, but Alex and I have recently gotten closer than ever and I was not complaining. I absolutely loved talking to him, feeling special just thinking I was lucky enough to get in contact with him. Yet, sadly nothing good ever lasts. My mom and Thomas where coming over to explore. I was estatic to see my mom, but felt like punching something whenever I had to think about Thomas staying under the same roof as me, again. 

Cause I need you now but I don't know you yet

I don't think I was mentally prepared to deal with him for a whole ass week. I sorta had a plan devised and asked Madeline to help me out pinpoint tourist locations so that way when I was at home they could be elsewhere. I would have just avoided them with work, but when John found out they would be in town, he insisted I have days off with full pay. Weird yes, but at least I was getting paid for avoiding my mom's sad excuse of a boyfriend.

But can you find me soon because I'm in my head?
Time skip to when they arrive because I want this to have something and not be a filler

There I was sitting in my room crying. I felt alone, like before. My mom had gone out to see a fried that lived nearby and left Thomas behind. To pick at every single flaw that he pulled out of thin air. I had all this built in stress and that poor excuse of a human was doing the opposite of helping. I just wanted to be held and cry. 

Yeah, I need you now but I don't know you yet

Just then I heard the soft ping that indicated that someone had messaged me on discord. As my silent prayers were answered, I responded to the person I knew could help me.
(You know the drill Alex is bold y/n is italic)

Hola Hermosa

Buenas tardes pendejo

Ouch Who fucking hurt you

many people🤠

I don't know if that's serious or not but for the sake of being nice
Are you alright

Hah. No ✨

Jesus Christ two emojis. That's gotta be bad. Vc?

please😙

STOP FUCKING USING THEM IRONICALLY IT MAKES EVERYTHING SO MUCH WORSE

ok🐸

I got my laptop out while I heard Thomas yelling at something he didn't like that was in my apartment. I honestly became tired so I opened discord, joined Alexe's call and left it at that

They're selling me for parts
And I don't wanna be modern art

"Hola puta"

"call me a puta and I'll fly over to Mexico just to kick you"

"doubt it"

"wanna bet"

"no please I don't want to be kicked"

But I only got half a heart

To give to you

We both started laughing at our stupidity,forgetting who was in a two mile radius, untill I heard something outside my door shatter. The mic must have picked it up because Alex questioned what it was

"You okay? That's didn't seem so, uh, what's the word, hum, happy?"

"Just my bitchy step dad who thinks he owns the place."

"Oh?"

"Yeah just not the best"

"I can tell, but hey at least I'm here now!"I smile and agreed we talked for a little longer untill I heard him swearing saying how bad everything was. 

How can you miss someone you've never seen?

Oh tell me, are your eyes brown, blue, or green?

And do you like it with sugar and cream?

Or do you take it straight, oh, just like me?

This was when I snapped. Alex and I had been in a call for about two hours now and he kept having outbursts just for the fun of it. I stuck my head out not caring if I was unmuted or not and yelled the following to Thomas:

"IF YOU HAD ANY HUMAN DECENCY YOU WOULD SHUT THE FUCK UP, THIS IS NOT YOUR LIVING SPACE, YOU ARE NOT PAYING RENT AND OR MY COLLEGE TUITION! NOT TO MENTION THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE LIVING HERE SO SHUT THE FUCK UP OR I'M GONNA KICK YOU OUT WITH NO HESITATION!" at this point I had gotten so frustrated that I let all my tears out

Yeah, lately it's been hard

They're selling me for parts

And I don't wanna be modern art

But I only got half a heart

To give to you

"Hey hey don't cry I got you"

"Alex your miles away"

"I got you emotionally" I just lightly chuckled and smiled 

And I hope it's enough

"Hey how about we watch Hamilton? You like musicals right?"

"yeah,"

"THEN LETS DO IT! And hey, if you wanna sing I won't complain this time" his smile is what made my day, what brightened my world and made it hundreds of thousands of times more bearable

How can you miss someone you've never met?

'Cause I need you now but I don't know you yet

"Okay,let's do it"

"LETS GOOOOOOO!" While he was setting up the movie and everything, I realised how much I liked Alex. His laugh, sense of humor, the way he brightened my mood with a single text and how he let alone made my stomach make cartwheels whenever we talked.


But can you find me soon because I'm in my head?

Yeah, I need you now but I don't know you yet

He was my everything  at this point. And I wanted to call him mine more than everything in the world. There were many things that held us back. Suck as work, school and the painfully obvious the distance. It pained me to know the chances of being his were one to none 

"Hey y/n, ya ready?"

"Yessir"

I need you now but I don't know you yet