Dear diary,
It's the first day of spring, it's my mother's birthday and it's eid Nowrouz (Persian new year) at 9:24pm tonight. it's going to be year 1402. Nowruz has a lot of traditions, you make a table with 7 things beginning with s and you keep it on display for like 13 days. we always get money on eid as well. I was dreading waking up to go downstairs though because even though i havent spoken to my dad, it's my mums bday and she honestly deserves the world and i didnt wanna ruin her birthday but i wasnt sure if she was still upset from last night.
i asked her if shes still angry at me even tho I didn't do anything wrong still and she said no, she said she said everything that she needed to last night and that todays a new day. which i was happy about. i asked her what time she is working so we can go out to celebrate, she has work from 10am-4:30pm, so im thinking sarays or miss potts but i dont wanna spend time with my dad. im not one to hold grudges at all, with anyone, im quite mature just say what we need to say then move on and let bygones be bygones. but when someone doesnt wanna acknowledge what theyve said or done or doesnt wanna clear the air or then i cba honestly. accountability is a big thing.
i need to tidy my room, my neck is killing me, and uni work. it took me ages to fall asleep last night, i had cramps, i havent started my period though, but i know im probably gonna start tomorrow if im getting cramps. although my period app say im gonna start on thursday so idk lol. i was thinking if the cramps were to do with what me and A did last night but it wouldnt have lasted this long and im familiar with the pain of period cramps lol.
i was thinking last night how he was doing the skin trace thing on my arms and hands yesterday and how much i love it, or how he remembered i prefer cafe nero and i like their drinks. honestly, i think thoughtfulness and being considerate is the highest form of love to me. i wanted this drink and he couldnt find it cos the shops didnt have it so i told him to allow it, its fine so i wasnt expecting a cafe nero drink it was a nice gesture tbf. he also called me a punjabi princess and i told him something about honey i cant remember exactly but i remember honey made a joke like 'do you think he says punjabi princess bc of me?' as in bc of her honey lol. so i think he called honey a punjabi princess as well last night and i told her to cheer her up and her reply made me laugh.
alsooooo, call me weird or crazy, but i like it when he hits my ass 🤷🏻♀️i also really liked the fact that he asked me if i finished last night too, i know a lot of my friends bfs dont really care, i mean they do and they dont, based off what theyve told me, but my friends literally finish themselves off when their bf isnt around. but A fully asked if i finished idk i just thought that was really caring.
But anyways
Have online uni soon and then I need to sort my room out and do the washing. Breakfast is gonna be a lions chocolate bar they're literally my fave right now. Oh that's another thjng, he got me an entire packet I was just expecting one bar, so that was a nice surprise lol. Unless it was all for him and I took it home lol woops. I'm also craving barburrito again too😂 I've told all my friends about it they're asking me stuff about it lol. feel like this time round I'm craving more savoury things than sweet things.
I'm quite sore today, it hurts when I walk but it's like a good type of pain if that makes sense, like exercise muscle pain it's good but sore I guess.
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My dad went out and got balloons and deli fuego cake, I've always wanted to try deli fuego so that's good. He was trying to talk to me and stuff and asked if I was okay... idk.
I finally finished the crown, all 5 seasons I kinda skipped through s3 but the last two seasons with Diana and Charles was really good, and I liked the first season as well. Shows how corrupt the royal family is and how many countries they colonised🙄 camilla makes my skin crawl, as well as Charles
ANDDDDD I AM OFFICIALLY WORKING AT THE HOSPITAL! I got their email today and I can literally pick up bank shifts from today alhamdulilah they were so fast with it all!
Not sure what I've done with my neck think it's a pinched nerve but I feel it all across my right shoulder as well. Really hurts. also my skin has cleared up alhamdulilah I don't wanna jinx it lol , I've been having a tablespoon of pure spiced olive oil a day for my hair and I've been watching what I eat lol but I think when I start my period I'll break out again. Been having cramps all day and it's made me just wanna stay in bed.
First pay check, I need to treat Ilham, cos that's what she did to me when she started working. I wanna go London towwwwn babyyyy . Obviously I'm gonna start saving properly I'm not gonna be crazy.
The house is all decorated now and we have birthday banners everywhere and balloons and the Eid table 7 letter s thing is ready, we call it sofreh haftseen. It's hard to translate what sofreh means but haft is the number 7 and seen is the letter S.
Working this Friday and weekend
Exciting.
Been on ft with H today a few times, I also froze my gym Membership cos no way I'm going during Ramadan lol.
My friends have been messaging me happy new year, I'm waiting to eat cake for real. Will probably have to speak to relatives over the phone for new year,