Feather After

Chapter 64

Feather After // Chapter 64 // Confessions And Family

Aria's POV

I didn't know what I was supposed to ask from whom. I didn't even know who was telling the truth and who was lying, it almost felt like everyone had gone against me. I was sure that the girl was telling the truth, why would she lie to me? Ignatius was kicked out of the Royal Society, the same year that Misty was kicked out. But when I was talking to Ignatius, he had told me that he and his family were kicked out of Royal Society because his mom was gay and he also said that the board members of the Royal Society had zero tolerance for anyone except the people who were white and straight.

Now that I looked at the whole situation, I could consider the option that maybe, just kind of maybe; Ignatius might have lied to me. I had seen him do things before and to be honest I somewhere in my heart expected him to do it again because why not would he not do what he did All over again.

I felt betrayed and somewhere or the other I started trusting Zachariah, he didn't lie to me, he didn't say things which were not true. He just told what he knew and that was more than enough for me.

I wanted to confront Ignatius and ask him what the hell was going on and I didn't know how to do that. All I felt was numb; I don't know how we reached home. I do remember, Nanna asking me what was wrong and how did I became so depressed suddenly but I had no possible explanation for that. What should I have told her, that I was in love with a guy who came with so many baggage that it was almost impossible to love him?

As I lay on my bed my thoughts were getting on my nerves. I really wanted to stop but it didn't know how to. I wanted to hit my self. I was going to get married, I-I wanted to do something. Maybe it was better this way, I could just end it here then maybe I wouldn't have to choose sides, then I wouldn't have to hurt someone for someone else, then it would be so much better.

I got up and took a deep breath, I could do it. Maybe nobody was supposed to understand the pain I felt. I felt like a loser, what had I done in my life excepting making other people's life horrible? Nothing.

I closed my eyes, I can do it. If I was no more maybe then Ignatius wouldn't have to choose between Misty and I and my parents wouldn't have to be as disappointed as they were.

As I was headed in my washroom I heard something hit my window. Maybe it was a stone or some bird. I went to look what it was and then I saw a pebble hit my window again. I hurried to see what it was and saw Ignatius standing below my house with some more stones in his hand.

My anger intensified when I saw him, I glared at him hoping that he would see it and go away. I was not in the mood to meet and greet. "Go away," I told him and closed my curtains.

He threw another stone at the window and I ignored it, maybe he didn't understand that I asked him to go away. I didn't respond to him so he threw another pebble at the window. I knew one thing for sure, that if I kept ignoring him, he would definitely get the attention of Nanna or probably break my window and I wasn't ready for the outcome of both consequences.

I took a deep breath and went to the window. I had to suppress the urge of calling him out and throwing insults at him. I looked at him and he looked at me, he went down and picked up another stone and seeing him do that I quickly opened the window and poked my head out, "what the hell is wrong with you?"

"You come down and stop ignoring me, otherwise I'll keep on flinging the stones," he yelled back. Nanna had really sharp ears and even if she had heard the whole exchange, she wouldn't say anything and then she would get all the things out of me just before bedtime. That's the way Nanna functioned.