BREEZY X: Chris Brown Imagines

Honesty

Updated 7/18/2023
Jessie & Chris

I open my eyes as I look at the ceiling of my bedroom. I sigh as I curl up in a ball under the covers. I've been in this bed for a week. I haven't stepped foot out of my dark room and barely showered. I feel tears form in my eyes and instantly wipe them away.

Ding Dong!

I sigh as I stay under the covers. The doorbell dings again, and I get up out of bed.

Me: Uhh what the fuck? Put the mail on the ground.

I say to myself as I reach the front door. I open it and stare in shock.

Me: C-Chris.

He looks at me with last week's mail.

C: Hey.

A Week Ago

I am laying on the bed, watching TV when Chris walks in from work.

Me: Hey babe.

C: Hey.

I get up and kiss his cheek.

Me: How was your day?

C: Stressful, but you're already relieving some of it when I saw your face.

I smile and give him a kiss.

C: How was yours?

My smile disappears as I sigh.

Me: Let's sit down.

I grab his hand and lead him to the couch. To be honest, today was not a good day. I went to my counselor and we had a deep discussion about something that's been bothering me.

C: What's wrong? You pregnant?

I roll my eyes at his question.

Me: No, Chris, I'm not pregnant.

C: Then what's wrong baby?

I want to tell Chris, but I'm scared about his reaction to it.

Me: You know I love you with everything in me, and I don't want things to change between us.

C: I swear on everything, please don't tell me you fucked another nigga on me Jessie.

Me: Chris, please!

I yell and it gets quiet. I look at him and see him getting upset.

C: Go on, tell me what's going on with you.

I feel tears form in my eyes as I look into his eyes.

Me: I-I-

I try to get the words out, but I can't speak.

C: Baby I've known you since middle school. You know you can tell me anything.

He place his hands on top of mine as I take a deep breath.

Me: Remember I had dated that guy senior year?

I ask him while looking down.

C: Yeah, that punk ass nigga. What about him?

The tears start falling as I feel my throat tightening up. Chris tilts my head up to look at him.

C: What happened?

Me: After we slept together, I went to my doctor to make sure I was good and—

The tears roll down my face as I brace myself.

Me: I found out I got HIV.

I start crying as I place my head in my hands. Chris sits there in shock.

C: You mean to tell me you had HIV and never told me?

Me: I didn't know how. Please know I didn't want to hurt you.

Chris stands and heads toward the door.

Me: Baby where are you going?

C: I need some time to think.

He walks out of the door.

Me: Fuck!

I pick up the closest in arms reach and throw it across the living room, breaking it.

Present Day
Chris and I sit on the couch, exactly how we were a week ago. He toss the mail on the table and looks around. I look down at my hands as I nervously wait for him to speak. He sighs.

C: You look like you haven't eaten or showered Jessie.

I stay quiet. He gets up and grabs my hand.

C: Come on, let's get you situated.

He leads me to my bathroom and turns the water on in the tub.

C: I'll get you some clothes, just sit here.

I sit on top of the toilet and start undressing. He comes back in with some clothes and a towel.

C: Get in the tub.

He helps me in and I sigh in relief. I relax a little bit in the hot water.

C: Feel better?

I nod slowly. It gets quiet for a moment.

C: Jess you can't let yourself get this bad.

Me: No point in doing anything when you are filled with guilt.

I say quietly as he passes me a face towel.

C: Baby I don't want you to feel that way.

I look up at him as I see tears form in his eyes.

C: I just wish I knew sooner.

Me: I know, but I thought it was fine to not say anything until we started getting sexual.

C: Regardless, I deserve to know.

Me: I know and I'm sorry Chris.

I start crying and he wipes my tears away.

C: I love you Jess. Just be honest with me.

Me: I promise.

He kisses my forehead and I exhale.

C: Don't do this again. You scared me.

I wrap my wet arms around him as I hug him tight.

Me: I love you too.

We pull away and wipe away a few loose tears on our faces.

C: Get cleaned up and I'll cook you something.

I nod as he kisses my lips. He gets up and changes his top before going in the kitchen. I grab the face towel and wash my body.