Love and Insanity
2035
Aidan
I found Valencia's journal.
Day 5
I used both bullets, I have none left.
None for me.
I can't keep her promise.
Day 6
I shot her.
What have I done?
Day 7
She lies next to her brother, I made sure.
We are back in the Bronx.
It's not more than a pile of ashes.
Day 8
I can not look at myself.
It is my fault.
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Day 9
My dreams are my enemy. I have seen them all in them. My mother, my sister, her, even my father. I can't sleep, the shadows are moving.
Day 10
//// //?
Ninha, Mom, father, Sina, Jason, Suraya, Henry, Valencia, me (?)
자살이 해결책인가?
Day 11
What have I done?
I can't even look at myself in the mirror, I'm just like my father.
엿먹어, 아빠
Day 12
I am not innocent. My hands have blood on them. Blood of a loved one.
Day 13
When I look in the mirror, I see my father staring back.
What happens to me now?
Day 14
I haven't slept. It is my flt falt FUALTfautl FAULT!
나는 그녀에게 짧게라도 시간이 있다고 생각했습니다.
Day 15
she is gone - really gone.
Fuck this fucking shit!
She is not here anymore, my only reason to stay has vanished. And I did it.
Day 16
How do I know she didn't feel pain? How do I know she isn't in pain anymore?
Do I believe in the afterlife?
SHE BLED TO DEATH!
Day 17
Saw her house today. It feels like a horror house.
Even worse than the ghost town I spotted.
Day 18
It was my fault.
I saw her. Again and again and again, until all my dreams were filled with her and only her.
Day 19
?
I swear it was yesterday.
Day 20
//// //// //// / ?
What am I even doing?
미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친 미친
Day 21
They have each other now.
I'm not there, I don't know how long I can stay.
Day 22
? //// //// //// //// //
외로워요 너무 외로워요
Day 23
I feel lonely. Again. It never changed.
피가 나올 때까지 3분 남았습니다. 그만한 가치가 있을까요, 아니면 나를 더욱 아버지로 만들까요?
Day 24
Diary entries are supposed to be longer, aren't they?
why did I even start this...
어쩌면 군대에 가는 것이 최선의 선택이었을 수도 있다.
Day 25
I did not eat. Rain, so much rain.
My bunker survived the flooding, more or less.
어떻게 될지 말지, 나는되고 싶지 않습니다. 꽃도 시들고, 풍선이 터지고, 이렇게 울어본 적이 없어요.
Day 26
사는 것은 혼자 죽는 것이다
I brought her daisies, her favorite
Found a bottle cap for Henry.
Day 27
Got rid of my gun. All it ever did was break trust and take people.
어쩌면 기회가 있었을 때 그냥 총을 쏘았어야 했을지도 모릅니다.
Day 28
Her words. Not my fault, not in pain – do I believe them?
아니요
내가 왜 한국어로 글을 쓰고 있는 걸까?
Day 29
It is my fault.
I can't ever forgive myself for that.
Day 30
It isn't my fault. She has told me that.
She is not in pain anymore.
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