Are you Real?

The plan*

Few days later

The warm water trickles down my back as I try waking myself up way too early for my liking currently 5am, and I'm standing in the shower but my body felt restless. I won't lie, my mind is engulfed by Diana. Where is she? What is she up to? Will she hurt the people I love?

I'm scared even more for her to hurt my family. Wanda pulling me aside yesterday letting me know the wonderful news that's she's pregnant. The secrecy around it still her priority due to it being too early to announce it. Will Wanda and her baby get hurt? Does Diana know? Will she use that?

All of these questions swirl in my head as I get sleepless nights trying to hide my exhaustion and worry from Natasha laying completely still or quietly trying to slip out of bed so she can sleep peacefully. But, Natasha quickly feeling my movements every time I try leaving the bed, those widow senses are insane.

I would normally come up with an excuse for my body being awake, saying I'm thirsty or my leg was cramping, but this time, I told her I'm restless and just need to feel warm water on me.

The warm water relaxes me and the coolness of the tiles against my forehead helps calm my spiral as I concentrate on the hard cold surface. But, the one thing that's keeping me up making me restless is that same nightmare on replay.

I hear the shower door open an arm snaking around my middle her breasts pressed against my back, "baby.." she rasps out, "I know something is bothering you..." I take a deep breath letting it out, she just knows me so well, "it's nothing my love.." I assure her.

"It's not nothing, Y/n." She turns me around finger gently gripping my chin, "and don't lie to me..talk to me." I rest the back of my head against the tile sighing, "it's funny." I say, "I tell you not let it drive you mad.." Natasha's face softens fingers tilting my head back down, "but it's driving me mad."

"This is about Diana?" she asks finger letting go of my chin as they rest on my waist. I nod, "I just keep thinking, what is she up to? Will she hurt you guys? How can I stop this?" I cover my face sighing, soft fingers removing my hands from my face placing it on her cheeks as her lips kiss the inside of my wrists. "Detka.." she clicks her tongue sadly, "why didn't you tell me it was bothering you? That's for me to worry about..." I shake my head at her words in disbelief that this should be a concern she holds all by herself.

"I've been having these odd dreams..." I mumble, "and always about Diana." My mind playing tricks on me making it feel so real . "I dont know why but, it's like she has a hold on me again," Natashas eyes scan mine, "what do you mean that she has a hold of you?"

"When I close my eyes she's just there...." I sigh looking away from her watching the shower door fog up from the steam a warm wet finger tilts my head back worry now present on her face even more. 

"Tell me Detka.."she asks hesitantly. I run my hand up and down her back resting them on her waist I don't know how she'll handle what I'm going to say but she does have the right to know, "I walk into the compound and it's so quiet..Until she rounds the corner. And I feel stuck. Like I can't run, I can't move and I can't scream." I rub my forehead missing how she clenches her jaw. "She has you and I can't get to you..."

"Detka," Natasha claims my lips gently chuckling lightly, "she'll never hurt me..she can try but she could never."

I smile at her confidence but it doesn't put my mind at ease. I mean, Diana is a literal demigod. "I promise you Y/n I'm not going to get hurt." She reassures me pressing a gentle kiss to my lips.

"Well.. that brings me to something else.." I turn off the water stepping out with her, "I've been thinking.." I wrap my body with a towel walking out of the bathroom sitting on the edge of the bed, "and just hear me out.."