Louis dropped to his knees in front of me and started to cry.
"Harry please, don't do this to me. Please don't leave me again....I beg of you!"
Oh Jesus Mary and Joseph.........fooking hell! My heart was breaking in two. I loved him so much but I was so fooking pissed right now. I wanted nothing more than to get down on my knees and comfort him. But I couldn't, I just couldn't. He took something away from me tonight. Something I was never ever going to get back.
"I love you Louis , more than anything but I can't handle this right now. I need time......I need to be alone and away from you while you work this out. I'm not leaving you......I just......I just need to be away from you."
"Harry ......please tonight was supposed to change everything. Please." Oh god Louis please stop begging me please!
"I'm going back to the cabin. Please don't come there. I'm going to fly home with Matilda and Charlie tomorrow. Please just......just......just leave me alone for awhile Louis . If you love you will just leave me alone."
I turned and walked away from him......again. This time it was so much fooking harder. I knew he never meant for this to happen. It was both of our faults. Well no not really. It was that dickwads fault for not being able to tell me he loved me and then going on a three month man whore mission.
I can't believe he was going to ask me to marry him tonight. Why didn't my dad just wait to tell me about the fooking restraining order? WHY?!
Oh that bitch was smart to get that fooking thing. I so wanted to go right that minute and......and......well I can't say what I wanted to do cause the stupid bitch was pregnant!
That stupid mother fooking son of a bitch stupid arse wipe dumb mother......Oh god......
I cried the whole way to the deer cabin. I almost hit two mother fooking deer on the way. Stupid animals, oh god I didn't mean that! What the hell is wrong with me?
I wish Niall was here. Oh god how I wish I could call him. I pulled up and saw a few small lights on. I was so tired all of a sudden. All I wanted to do was get into bed and sleep. I sat in the jeep and thought about the first time Louis and I made love.
It was the night of Charlie and Matilda's wedding. They got married at the Clayton hotel and Louis had booked a room there that night and I didn't know it. The way he couldn't tear his eyes off of me during the whole wedding ceremony should have been my first clue. Of course the suit Amanda had me wear showed off my bum pretty good.
The room had been perfect. Simple but filled with LED candles and rose petals spread all over the bed. It was on the historical side of the hotel and had a balcony looking down onto Sixth Street. There were massage oils and lotions and chocolate covered strawberries. Oh god......it was magical. It was magical because Louis was so sweet and gentle. After talking to Niall I wasn't so nervous about my first time. He said it had hurt but after awhile it felt wonderful. He wasn't fooking kidding.
It was amazing.
I sighed as I got out of the truck . Matilda and Olivia would probably be coming to get their stuff. I'm sure once they heard what happened they would want to check in on me. I just really wanted to get out of this suit and these shoes and just sleep. I opened up the door and almost fell over.
Oh no! NO! NO! NO! NOOOOOO! The whole room was covered with Stargazer Lilies. I mean the whole room was filled with them. There were bouquets of them in flower vases with blue bonnets mixed in. There were bouquets that had the stems wrapped in a light pink satin. Oh my god. One bouquet was so big......it was sitting in an old bucket with other wild flower bouquets. The smell in the room was unbelievable.
It was......perfect.
It would have been perfect. I was so mad at my father for ruining this for me. OH GOD Louis ! He must have spent a fortune on all of these flowers.
I started to slide down the door and cry. I put my head down on my knees and just sobbed. I slammed my head back into the door and just screamed as loud as I could.
"MOTHER FOOKER !" I ruined everything because I couldn't just let him explain. FOOK! FOOK ! FOOK!
I sat there and cried so hard I felt like I couldn't breathe. Oh my god Louis ......Oh god......why did I walk away and tell him not to come here. If I had only known.....ARGH! I'm so stupid!
"Oh god why?? Why did this have to happen? WHY!" I screamed out. Then I heard a small knock on the door.
That must be Matilda and Olivia . I slowly got up and opened the door.
I sucked in a breath of air as I saw the only man I would ever love standing there. He came for me. He didn't walk away this time.
He came for me..........
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