"Mate,you gotta calm down." I laugh
"Shit, Lou I don't wanna watch my baby brother suck face with one of my best friends." Greg said
"When you gave Liam the ok to go out Niall what'd you expect?" I ask
"I don't know guess...it'll just take me a little while to get used to, but hey guys I gotta take this it's Denise. I'll be inside if ya need me." He says running in the house.
I laugh because he's totally whipped. I looked out to the dance floor and scanned for who I was looking for.
Harry..I shouldn't be laughing at Greg being whipped by Denise. Because I'm whipped, but the sad thing is he has Denise. I don't have Harry, but I'd still do anything he ask me too.
He was dancing with Olivia and Matilda to Usher's "Yeah." Damn he could move.
I wanted to know what he felt like in my arms dancing. They looked like they were heading over to get something to drink. I hurried over to Steve and ask him to play a certain song next. He nodded and I went and sat back down. Harry was drinking a beer and some of it ran down his lip onto his chin. Motherfooker, this guy has been getting my dick hard since I 18 years only. He looked down at me as he wiped his chin.
"You been drinking long?" I ask smiling at him.
"Think you could teach me a better way to do it, dickwad?" He asked with a sexy arse smirk. I didn't care how many times he called me names as long as he was talking to me. I lucked out with douchebag Ed Sheeran out of town.
Steve started up Rascal Fatts' "What hurts the most" right then I jumped up and took the beer out of his hand and handed it to Liam.
"Dance with me. Please."
He looked stunned but nodded his head yes. I took his hand and led him out to where a few other people were dancing. I put my arms around his neck and he pulled me close to his body. I hadn't had Harry this close to me since we were 14 and he fell trying to rollerblade.
I nuzzled my face into his neck, taking a deep breath taking in his wonderful scent. I had to memorize every detail of how he felt, how he smelled and looked right at this moment. I felt him relax more and more. I prayed that he was listening to the song. He wouldn't ever let me apologize for my behavior and this was best I could think of last minute. I pulled him closer to me as the word to the song played that I wished so badly I could say to him.
I felt him grip harder on to me all I wanted. God, I wanted to kiss him so fooking bad.....he smelled like vanilla. Had he always smelled like that? I just held on tight while we danced.
The song was gonna end soon I got on my tip toes and whispered in his ear.
"I'm so sorry I hurt you, baby. If I could take it all back I'd do it in a heartbeat. I never want to hurt you again Haz. Ever. It kills me you didn't get you special moment. I'll never forget that I took that away from you. I'm sorry."
I pulled away and looked up into his eyes.
Fook, he's crying...
"Lou, I need tell you something, and you're probably gonna hate me after I tell you," he said in between sobs.
"Baby, I could never hate you."
The song ended and we were just standing there. I reached up and tried to wipe away his tears that were falling down like rain.
"I...I never slept with Ed. I just told you that because I wanted to hurt you as much as you hurt me.
I'm...I'm still a virgin, Louis. The moment I left that message I wanted to call you back but I was so angry still. I'm so sorry. I just wanted to hurt you as much as you hurt me." Harry spoke so fast I was hardly able to process what the hell he was saying.
Holy motherfooking shit. I spent almost a damn month punishing myself for something that never happened.
I closed my eyes silently thanking god he didn't sleep with that arsehole. Then I opened them and saw him staring down at me. I just smiled at him.
If he'd set out to hurt me , he did a good job of it.
"Well giantor, it worked. I, um, I need to go check on the food and everything. I'll talk to you later ok?"
I turned and walked away from the one person I would always love...but never be able to have.
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Fanfiction(Book 1 in the wanted series) Verbally abused by his mum for years, 18 year old Niall Horan always believed he'd never be loved or wanted by anyone. He focused all his attention on grades and getting into the university of Dublin to start a new l...
