The Ice Queen's Rebound

Chapter 4: Sunshine In The Rain

Carmel Lucia

I smiled as I looked at the baby boy that I delivered earlier. He is peacefully sleeping inside the level one nursery with the other healthy babies. I am only looking at him through the huge window.

Matapos ang ilang sandali ay napag-desisyonan ko nang maglakad palayo dahil may iba pa akong pasyente. Hindi ko naman maiwasang humikab. Kulang na kulang ako sa tulog dahil nang pumatak ang alas tres sa orasan ay nakatanggap ako ng 9-1-1 call mula sa resident ko, saying that Mrs. Terbio is in labor and she wants me to deliver her first baby. So, I rushed to the hospital as fast as I could. When I put my proper scrubs on and I got to her room, she's still in labor and it took her cervix three hours to open up.

Matapos noon ay nahitak na ako sa iba pang minor cases like biopsy, draining of abscess, and a hysteroscopy. Now, it's nine in the morning, I am running on caffeine and I'm on my way to the GSMH's clinic because I have patients there too. It's the clinic that Trinity Huang built, it's free for everyone. I hate her a little less because of that.

Nasa likod ng ospital ang clinic at malapit iyon sa open parking lot. Ngayong kakalabas ko lang sa back entrance ay sumalubong sa akin ang amoy ng malamig na hangin ng umaga. The wind blew softly on my whitecoat, I'm wearing it over my pink scrubs. My hair is pulled back in a ponytail, I wanna look cute despite that, so nag-iwan ako ng iilang dalawang hibla sa gilid ng aking mukha.

This is one of my peaceful mornings dahil maaga akong nakaalis sa bahay at hindi ako naabutan ni Beaux. He has early surgeries according to the board when I looked at it earlier.

And speaking of that man.

I lied about bad boys, alright? dahil una sa lahat ni hindi ko alam kung ano ang gusto ko sa lalaki pagdating sa kama. I mean I know what physical traits I like. For instance, if they smell good, dress good, and swabe ang datingan, syempre 'yun yung mga tipo ng lalaki na binibigyan ko ng atensyon. Pero I have never taken a man in my bedroom before or even now. I also meant what I said to Beaux about men not knowing where our 'pleasure button' down there is. I have never met a man who actually knows where it is. Let alone know what to do with it. So, why the fúck would I want to mess with them in the bedroom?

Anyway, I don't even know what Beaux saw in me. Nagsimula siyang 'ligawan' ako—that's the term he used—noong napag-desiyonan niyang mag-stay dito sa Pilipinas, last August.

Hindi ako bulag o manhid, so alam ko at nakikita ko ang mga bagay na ginagawa niya para sa akin. And might I say that Beaux is the strangest man I have ever met because like I said before, he seemed too good to be true. Kasi fine, aaminin ko na, may hitsura talaga si Beaux. 'Yung tipong kapag nilagay mo siya sa isang kwarto na puno ng mga tao, 'yung mukha niya 'yung mags-stand out. Hindi lang dahil sobrang tangkad niya, but also just because of his face and his always messy brown hair.

In my profession as a doctor and an agent, I have seen many faces but when the first time I saw him and then later on, I closed my eyes. His appearance is visible in my dark vision.

It's fücking weird but he had that kind of effect on me that I would never admit to his face.

He also takes care of his body too since I can see those packs when he wears his little crop tops. And that's another thing about him. I like that he combats these gender norms that society puts up. But honestly, he can literally wear anything and he would still look good. I've observed that long enough.

Beaux has more than superficial traits too, since he's a dåmn good doctor, I have never seen him lose a patient. He did surgical approaches that I've never seen a doctor here did before and it worked well. He's also patient and kind to everyone, he's a feminist who most probably grew up around Gloria Steinem literatures. Marunong siyang magluto, he doesn't feel emasculated when he does laundry or clean the house. And he has this bright aura around him that could lit up a room full of sad people.