Goodbye Doesn't Mean Forgetting

Goodbye Doesn't Mean Forgetting: Part 23

Within 24 hours, I was back in the X Factor Arena. This time, Ella was sat on the opposite side of the stage and it was hard for her, because in reality, she wanted to be up there performing. Before the show started, we went backstage to see the boys before they went on. We being myself, Lucy, Ella and Olly. We all gathered in a group huddle, wishing the boys good luck, putting our hands in the middle and rising up like a volcano shouting Union J. I gave JJ one last kiss, let go of his hand and took my place in between Ella and Olly. Showtime. I must admit, the boys were amazing tonight. When they sang I'm Already There, Ella and I had tears coming from our eyes. However, the boys didn't think they'd done enough, they knew they were going. All night and for the rest of Sunday they were saying how much of an amazing time they had and were thanking all of the staff. How could the boys not get through? It was between them and Chris, lets be honest, it wasn't a hard competition. The results show came around, the lights dimmed and Dermot came on again, promoting the tour and introducing the judges. Now it was time for the group performance. The music began and a spotlight hit Jahmene. He began to sing the opening lyrics to Merry Christmas Baby. Then the spotlight hit Chris who stood and sang the next lyrics and then to James. Finally, the four boys stood there in their suits, singing their hearts out enjoying every minute of their performance. Jaymi's dancing was the most adorable thing ever and George was like a little kid announcing Rod Stewart on stage. Then came the results. Ella Grabbed hold of one hand, Olly hold of the other, squeezing them tightly. I knew now that it was between Chris and the boys, I prayed it would be Chris who was going home./

"The first act through to the live finals is.............Christopher Maloney"

I sighed, and the tears started falling from my eyes, I knew from that moment that the boys were going home. Ella grabbed hold of me straight away and whispered in my ear that there was still hope.

"The next act, safe and going through to next weeks final is............James Arthur"

My stomach dropped again. I looked up to see the boys on stage, stood next to one of their best friend in the competition Jahmene. JJ looked straight over at Ella and saw her hugging me in her arms. He told her to look after me. Then came the moment, would it be Jahmene or the boys.

"The final act going through to the finals in Manchester next week is..........."

It was the longest pause of my life, I didn't know what to do. I could hear my heart beating through my chest, beating faster and faster.

"JAHMENE"

Then my world stopped. I couldn't hear anything. I saw Olly's head go down and I felt Ella grab me even tighter and hug me as tightly as she could. The boys had fallen at the final hurdle. I didn't know how I felt, was it anger or sadness, had I not voted enough, had I not done enough? I didn't know. The boys faces were disappointed, they looked so sad. They were asked to perform Love Story one last time and they willingly agreed. Standing on stage, they gave that final performance everything they had. George got so excited, he nearly fell off stage but Josh saved him, it made me giggle a little. I turned to look at Louis, he had tears in his eyes. The boys were like his sons and he was like their dad. When the show went of air, all the families rushed backstage, ready to comfort the boys. They had been so strong not to cry but I knew they were heart broken. We heard Olly and Caroline step on stage, talking to the boys, asking them how they felt. I could head the pain in Josh's voice.

"Well, we've got a surprise for you" said Caroline.

"You do?" asked Jaymi.

"Your Family and Friends"

We were all released on stage, I ran straight into JJ's arms, hugging him tightly. I could hear him sobbing into my shoulder and I stroked his hair.

"It's not the end" I whispered.

He gave me a quick kiss on the cheek, but it turned into something more. Much more than I'd planned. We ended up kissing passionately on stage, the camera's on us. I could feel the girls watching me, getting ready to leap on me and hurt me. The room went silent. JJ stopped kissing me, looked around and saw everyone's eyes glaring at us. He looked at me, gave me a cheeky smile and pulled me off stage. I went and sat in his dressing room along with Ella, Lucy and Olly. They had to go and do their final interview for the Xtra Factor so we left them too it. The dressing room was silent. No one knew what to say, especially not me. I dreaded looking on twitter, it was obvious, people would know who I was, why I was with JJ, what I was doing. I'd have received thousands of death threats already. I wanted to crawl into a corner and cry. Finally, the boys entered the dressing room, looking exhausted. They all ran into their partners arms; hugging them as tightly as they could. One by one, we were issued out of the arena and into a black van. JJ took hold of my hand, opened the door and we were greeted by a sea of flashing lights and cameras. I put my head down and stepped into the cab with JJ, heading back to the hotel. I had been asked to go with the boys to their interviews tomorrow, apparently, JJ was going to do something important that I should be there for.

Early the next morning, I was woken up by the sound of JJ packing his case.

"Did I wake you?"

"Oh no, I..I was awake anyway" I smiled, sleepily.

I went, took a quick shower and put on my jeans and a jumper, tying my hair up in a messy bun. First stop was Daybreak. The boys got out of the cab and went straight into make up. JJ wearing his jeans, t-shirt and grey blazer. We walked hand in hand to the set, where the boys took their places and I watched on from behind the camera.

"3...2...1...Live on air"

"Good Morning, So last night on the X Factor, we saw one of my favourite acts, Union J be voted off the X Factor and their joining us now, How are you feeling boys?" Lorraine asked.

"We're feeling good..." Josh started.

"Yeah, we're disappointed like everyone but erm, yeah...." Jaymi said.

"It's not gonna be the last you hear of Union J though..." George added.

"Yeah like we've got so much more to come from us, haven't we lads..."

"So how are you and Ella then George?" Asked Aled.

"We're....We're good thankyou" George replied going red.

"And JJ, we saw a bit of action from you last night" Lorraine said.

"You did?" JJ asked.

"Take a look at this clip"

I looked over to the screen where the clip of JJ and I kissing last night was shown. My stomach started to do somersaults. The boys began to laugh. JJ looked over at me, smiled and mimed that everything would be ok.

"Ooooohhhh" the boys chorused.

"Care to explain?" Aled asked.

"Yes, we've had a lot of your fans tweeting in and asking about her"

JJ took a deep breathe.

"Ok, so this isn't the way I planned for this to come out at all, but her name's Meg and I'm so proud to say that she is my girlfriend"

"Aw that's adorable, and how long have you been with her"

"I've been with her all my life really, We were best friends when we were younger and we were split up due to bad circumstances. We've been erm...reunited again and I'm in love with her, she's beautiful and I couldn't be happier..."

I began to smile and it didn't leave my face all day. Every interview that the boys did, JJ was asked about our kiss last night and soon the whole of the UK would know about JJ and I. What a way for a relationship to come out?. It wasn't the way I planned, but, I guess it's a good thing that it's now all out in the open....isn't it?