*Melody's POV*
I felt light headed and dizzy as soon as I opened my eyes. It was a feelings I got used to because I had felt it everytime I woke up. Almost everyday actually. I was a mess. This was because of my anorexia and on occasions, bulimia. I self harmed too. Cut my legs and arms. I pulled my hair out too. Well not really. I just when I start brushing my hair with my hands, using my fingers, I just keep stroking my hair until hair came out. It was weird. But I couldn't stop and I didnt know why or how. All I knew that I was a fuck up, with a fucked up family, and a fucked up life.
Hi, my name is Melody. My mother and father I guess named me after 'music' idk.. My parents we're musicians before they died a couple of years ago. They died in a car crash. And I was supposed to be their 'perfect little daughter'. Sorry that it didn't work out like you guys wanted.. I was never really close to them but I always will love them and it hurts everyday still to know that their gone. I started living on my own when I was 16. I got passed laws and child protection services. Idk how but i did it. Anyways, I'm 18 years old. I have long blonde and brown hair. I love make-up. I love One Direction, Demi Lovato, Taylor Swift, Katy Perry, Linkin Park, Blood On The Dance Floor, Paramore and more. I love music and always listen to it.
I sat up from my bed and walked into the bathroom. I reached under the sink. I go for the roof of the bottom cabnet. I feel a box taped onto the roof of the cabnet in the back upper corner. I called it my release box. It contained my small and large shiny silver razors. How I felt about them I couldn't explain. They were my best friend. They were there for me when i needed them most. Everytime.
I suddenly got dizzy again felt nauseous. I fell over on the rug that was placed in the middle of the cold tiled floor. I soon as i fall, i wait and check where I am and try to get back up. As I do, i realize once again, how seriously messed up i am. My anxiety level rose in seconds. I thought about how no one would want to be friends with a freak. I was just so messed up in the head and everywhere else. I had depression, anxiety, a eating disorder, i self harmed, ADHD, ODD and much more. I had no where to go. These things were my releases. I needed them, and no matter how hard I tired to stop, I always went back to it. I'm nothing but a Lost, Hopeless, and Destroyed girl.
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Lost, Hopeless, and Destroyed (A One Direction/Niall Horan Fanfic)
FanfictionMelody is very emotionally and mentally unstable. She suffers from an eating disorder, self harm, and has serious depression. She has lost all hope. Until one day when she meets One Direction. And the boys want to help her. So they decide that she w...