I blamed it on todays happenings.
First the mention of Lisa, then Joy's appearance.
All those reminders, all those moments where I was plagued by memories I could never forget, faces that still laughed at me, called me Bunny and enjoyed my pain with glittering eyes...I just wanted silence.
Just wanted to be nothing for a while.I had always needed these moment.
Moments where there was just me and my thoughts.
Just silence surrounding me.I had found a room on the top floor that was empty and hushed inside.
I left the lights turned off and sat on the bed where I buried my head in my hands.Like I could make the world stop spinning for a moment.
Where I could forget everything: the Orphanage, sleeping under a bridge during winter, being found by Suho, being part of a cruel empire and seeking their acceptance.
Even meeting Jimin.
I just, for a moment, didn't want to even think about him.
All the things that happened.
All the times I hurt him, again and again.A sudden, unexpected touch to my shoulders had me scramble back in rushing fear.
I had been so deep in my past, a touch like this reminded me only of the pain I felt back then.
But when my eyes adjusted, it was no other than Lian sitting on the bed beside me.I let our a relieved breath, and then quickly lowered my eyes.
I knew it was in them that she would see how fucked up I was."It's you."
"I noticed you were missing and decided to look for you."
Her voice was so soft, so unlike the person that had knocked down Joy just a few hours ago.
I still couldn't look at her, ruffling my hair instead and clearing my throat, trying to put on a fake smile for her.
"I just needed a moment. But we can go back now if you want. "
I already made a move to stand but she stopped me gently with a soft push to my chest.
I swallowed thickly.
I should have known better.
Lian was too smart to be fooled.
She knew something was up."Why don't you tell me why you were up here in the first place?"
"Nothing. I just needed a moment of silence and be able to... forget."
"Forget Jimin?"
I tensed.
How she knew so quickly, I couldn't tell.
Perhaps Tae had told her a bit.
But only hearing his name in a moment like this hurt.Jimin is pain.
I shook my head, trying to keep my voice from shaking.
"Forget everything."
"Trying to forget won't make what happened any less true."
"You don't know the things I want to forget."
"You mean beating Jimin?"
My head snapped around to her, not sure I heard right.
She chuckled gently, gifting me a little smile."You guys keep forgetting how curious I am."
It took me a moment, but then I understood, letting out a groan.
No, it wasn't Tae who had told her about this."Hwasa told you, didn't she? As much as you are curious, she is talkative. Ah," I let out, blood rushing to my face in embarrassment.
"She probably also told you I haven't slept with her, hasn't she?"
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Heal me // A Jikook Trilogy //
FanfictionAlone. That is all JK had ever been. Alone and forgotten in a cruel, heartless world. Growing up at the orphanage, all he had ever wanted, was to find a place he could call home. A family. To finally know what it felt like to be loved. He ran...