i wish i was taught about how to be whole again after giving so much of myself away.
i wish i knew how to stitch my skin back together after someone opened it all the way up and waste it.
i wish someone would told me earlier about how hard it is to feel okay, to be okay.
if i knew better i wouldn't let you be that close,
i will keep you at an arm's length.
if i can turn back time, i will locked it away deep inside of myself so anyone would never reach the most vulnerable part of me.
we used to dance together for so long 'till i forgot who make the first move. but now, it's only me who can feel the music, it's just me lonely dancing in an empty room while slowly losing a part of me, again.
being with you was like walking through an ocean. the more i walk, the deeper i sank.
if only i knew that we don't need to take things too far, maybe right now we wouldn't be that far.
maybe right now we will still dancing together while your big hands holding my small waist, while your smile makes your eyes shine brighter, while your thoughts still wondering what secret did i have underneath my skin.
it's like i can see the future.
beautiful things like this always came with an expiration date.
things like this never ended well for me.
i feel it coming.
i feel it coming.
—
February 9, 2021.
Ekwa.
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